Happy Birthday Henry!!!

Happy Birthday Grandpa Henry, my grandmother's wonderful, excellent husband of 5 years! Having Henry in our family has been such an amazing blessing, he's a man of integrity, strength and family. I love him so much and I'm privilaged to be his grandaughter! I hope he has a great birthday!

That being said, I know I say it a lot, but I have the BEST support system in my life! My family and my friends, they're just awesome! They're so supportive and encouraging! They listen and they listen and they listen and then, they listen some more! It's time for me to step up for them and listen to any and all of them anytime the next time they ask! I have been getting better at it, though, which is good!

Anyway, since I've been writing about Colin so much, I'll write about this too. Sorry if it offends him....but we had our first big fight! We made it through with flying colors, and I feel we're better and stronger now than before. We've been together, officially, two months tomorrow! Happy 2 Month Anniversary!!! :) Anyway, I learned a very important lesson--a love lesson and a life lesson...it's called TRUST. Trust is the key to maturity, and relationship longevity. Yesterday, I turned a new leaf, and now I can honestly say that I truly trust my boyfriend wtih all of my heart. He's a good man, an honest man, a faithful man. He's spent the last two months with me--took ME home to California, let ME meet his family, is going with me next month to meet mine, calls ME, loves ME. I have nothing to worry about, confidance is sexy, and insecurity is most certainly not. People say that every relationship, and I say that every person, teaches you a little something. Well, thank God for past experiences this time around, because I realized that I've beend doing to Colin what my ex used to do me. And it infuriated me, I don't ever want to be anything like my ex, and I sure as hell don't want mine and Colin's relationship to ever resememble anything close to my last relationship. That'd be a complete disaster! Okay, it wasn't all bad, but it certainly wasn't all good, either, and exes are exes for a good reason! Anyway, I've decided that I just have to trust Colin. That's it. One of my grandmothers put it quite bluntly "if you can't trust him, you're not mature enough to be in this relationship, or really any relationship." Very true, grandma! It's just that I've never been on this side of the fence, I've always been the one with friends who had to convince my significant other that I was good and true. I absolutely hated it when he (my ex) would pester me and not trust me, it's one of the reasons that relationship went down the drain so quickly and bitterly. I treasure Colin entirely too much to let that happen. When I was on a plane back in November, I talked to a couple who'd been married about 25 years, and I asked them what made it work for so long. I'm NOT married, and am not getting married anytime soon, but my point is...I'm very interested in what makes relationships work, what keeps people together for a long period of time, married or not. Becuase God knows relationships, like life, are not always easy. It's not all cakes and flowers and romance. It's the hurdles, skidmarks and tough times that make it better though, stronger, more wonderful! Anyway, that couple in the airport said something about reflection, when you see or have a problem with your partner, stop and look at yourself. Take responsibiliy for your actions, your feelings, your faults. I've always been very good about doing that, and I'm always the first to apologize when I'm wrong, I'll admit it, no problem. Anyway, I realized yesterday that I was being a stupid, insecure bitch, and that's not the woman I want to be. That's not the girlfriend I want to be. And most importantly, that's not the woman I am. I am usually very self-confidant and sure of who I am and what I'm about, and I know that I'm a good person. As lucky as I am to have Colin, he's also very lucky to have me. We're blessed to have eachother. And we know that. He told me that he not only loves me, he likes me, lol, that's important. I like him too, and I love him a whole heck of a lot. So, we're good now, it's cool, we'll be okay. I feel confidant in myself, in him, in our relationship and confidant in the choice I made. I grew up a lot in the past few days. I'm proud of that! Colin and I both jumped into this head first, without thinking or looking back, while I have no regrets, and I'm so glad everyday that I said yes to being his girlfriend, there are no perfect people or perfect relationships. There will be arguements, fights, tifts, etc, and then they pass and things get better! Things are great now, wonderful actually!

It's so freakin' cold here, it snowed in Vegas the other day, and it got down to 21* last night, too cold for Vegas, if I wanted that kind of cold I'd have stayed in Reno! LOL! It's supposed to be 41* today, still cold, but it hey, it's January...and winter..and I'll be begging for 41* weather in about 5 months when it's 98* and up!!! To everything a season, that's one of the biggest life lessons ever--I had an icy storm (literally and figuratively) and now the flowers (and love) are blooming again! Yay! April showers bring May flowers...

Looking for an angel in these hills Looking for a map to find what we left behind Knowing that we will Always end up right where we start Cause I got time on my hands and hope in my heart We both understand we weren't meant to be apart April showers bring May flowers I have seen rain before But if Sunday morning lets that sun in What are we waiting for Cause love leaves an open door If I had one day I'd wish for two One for me, baby, and one for you And it would find you right where you are With time on your hands and hope in your heart We both understand we were written in the stars April showers bring May flowers I have seen rain before But if Sunday morning lets that sun in What are we waiting for Cause love leaves an open door It's worth all the cost Til I find what I lost in your eyes And you realize April showers bring May flowers We have seen rain before But if Sunday morning lets that sun in What are we waiting for Cause love leaves an open Wishing and hoping Love leaves an open door!
"April Showers," by Sugarland!

I'm so happy and so blessed! Thank you Lord for the amazing, beautiful and supportive people in my life--all of them--they are my greatest blessings!

God Bless us everyone!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)