Happy Belated Valentine's Day: School, Road Trip, Friends & Age!

It's been nine days since my last entry, and I really wanted to write one yesterday-but it was Valentine's Day and I got sidetracked. No date, nothing like that-I was writing a paper for my poetry class because it was due today. An analysis of two poems about motherhood-very intense-but tolerable. I do better that way, when I write things in my head-for weeks-and then put it down on paper like 12 hours before it's due. I know it's not the best way to do papers, but after six years of college-there is a method to my madness. Seriously, all the papers I've labored over for days and weeks, I ended up with C's; the papers I write the night before they're due; A's! Hey, it may not work for everyone, but it works for me. I think I did a great job on the paper, I did my best and hopefully I'll get a good grade! Passing this class would be enough for me at this point-very difficult, but I'm stickin' with it, I'm NOT a quitter-never have been, why start now?

So other than my paper, I spent yesterday calling my loved ones-because to me, Valentine's Day isn't just about romance, it's about all matters of the heart-and expressing our love to our loved ones-which we should do everyday-but anyhow-I called a lot of people yesterday and it was nice to hear all of their voices. I have an amazing support system in my life and I am so damn lucky to have them. I talked to both of my grandma's, Donnia, his fiancee' Erica (lovely sweet woman), Claudia, Ellen, Elizabeth and I even got to chat online with my good friend, Liz, in India-whom I hadn't talked to in months-that was wonderful!
On another note, Grandma and Henry are back home and safe and sound. They bought a new truck last week, some kind of GMC thing and are healing pretty well. Considering they're both in their 70s, they're actually doing really well! I'm so glad they're okay and resuming life as normal.

However, my mom isn't feeling to well today-has a headache and is achy all over, I hope she's not coming down with anything-she probably just needs some sleep and rest-the woman still does not how the meaning of the word-relax. LOL!

So a month from tomorrow I'll be heading out on my next road trip. Yes, I'm nervous, but I'm SO excited. It'll be so much fun! I'm going to my Grandma Joni's 70th birthday party in Southern California; then on up to the Bay Area to see LOTS of friends (Claudia, Judy, Nancy, Matt, etc.), then onto Reno/Fernley to see MORE people like Grandma and Henry and Karen and all of them. I'm looking so foward to it-I just love traveling and sight seeing-and especially people-visiting. I'm so fortunate to have ALL of these people open their hearts (and homes) to me pretty much whenever I want. Lucky me! :)

So about my Grandma's 70th birthday-it's kinda funny-but not; as I was talking with her on the phone yesterday she said she was talking to a friend who's only a week older than her and they were discussing how they only have about 20 years left-if they're lucky-MAYBE 25. I'm 22, so they pretty much have as old as I am-which is scary and sad in some ways; but great in others. I'm a generally positive person-and I try not to worry about the world that I alone cannot change-but the truth is-the world is getting uglier, scarier and more unfair by the moment-well not so much for women-but you know what I mean. In some ways, I wish my grandmothers and I could trade ages-I'd be 70 something and they could be 22. Becuase quite frankly, when I try and picture the world when I am actually 70 something-oh dear God, no thank you. I shudder to think of what it will look like and how it will be. Shit. Sorry, but truthfully, that's it, shit. Anyhow, but then again, I'm so glad that I'm 22, and not older (and definately not any younger) because I'm in an era where as a woman, I DECIDE MY FATE. Well, actually God and I work pretty equally on that as I believe we all work with God on that-but still-anyway. I get to DECIDE if I want to get married (which I don't) or have kids (probably not). I get to DECIDE if I want to be a nurse, a doctor, a politician, a writer, a mother, a...anything. When my grandmother's were 22, they really didn't have many choices. Sure, there were SOME women back then who DID break the mold and go their own way-but for the most part-you graduated High School-maybe went to college-and then married and had babies. That was it. You could be a nurse or a secretary or a teacher-that was about it. So thank God that I am 22, that I can make my own choices-and there's no better place (and more confusing place) to do that than America! God Bless us America, and God Bless us Women! We rock!

Speaking of America, the Vice Presdient, Dick Chenney, accidently shot a man while hunting last weekend-it's rather funny actually. I'm sure it was an accident, and while I'm not the biggest Bush/Chenney supporter (I grew up Democrat), I can honestly say that I do believe this is was a mistake. Everyone seems to be trying to make it some political thing when it's not-these guys were hunting, lost their heads-forgot to pay attention (as most men do-they CANNOT multi-task to save their lives) and oops-someone's shot. The victim wasn't too badly hurt and he's okay now-so like, okay, the VP shot somebdoy, can we move on with our lives now? I don't understand why this country stops moving for the stupidest little things-while completely ignorning the big things that do matter! LOL!

What else? Oh I'm going to my first club this coming weekend with my friend, JoJo-for her birthday. Her bday was last weekend, but we didn't make it dowtown, so we're going this weekend. I don't think I'll like it-but I at least have to try it, I mean, I'm a 22 year old young woman living in Las Vegas-HELLO-it's about time I experienced the club scene-come on! Besdies, I'll be the designated driver as usual-I'm always the DD, I just don't enjoy drinking-I think it's pointless-or at least it is for me.

I guess that's why I don't really like most people my own age-they seem to NOT want to work, and party all the time-there's just more to life than that you know. People around my age seriously lack "work ethic," they do not know what it means to work and don't want to-and that's dumb. Come on people, our parents and grandparents and their parents worked their asses off and some still are-what makes us think we're so specical we don't have to work? That's not the way life works-you want things, you earn them, period. Life is not handed to you, and neither is money or luck-you make it, you create it and most of all, you work for it-case closed.

Anyway, this has got me thinking-the average age of my closest friends is 40. That's including about 22 people ranging in ages from 16-76; with most of them being in their 30s & 50s-wow, that's scary-and great. Look at all the mistakes I won't have to make from learning from all the older people in my life. I consider myself about 28 or 30 anyway-I've always felt at least 5-10 years older than my actual age-and a few years ago, when I was 19-I took an EMOTIONAL Quotient test and it said I was 38 (emotionally speaking)-at 19 years old, that was 3 years ago, so 38+3 means that I'm now approximately 41*- which is just above the average age of my closest friends. LOL! That's wierd-and very cool! I don't know, like I said, most people my age just wanna party-why? I never understood the point-I don't have the time nor the interest anyway. I've honestly been to ONE party my whole life-yes, only one, I lasted about an hour and then went home. Did I mention that it was a party next door to the house I was living in? Real far venture I took that night-all the way next door! Go Sarah! LOL! It was fun, for about 10 minutes, and then boring and then stupid-I'd rather write, or read or meditate or spend time with my mother/cat/other friends-is that wrong? Actually, no it's not, I think it's great-I think it's friggin' awesome and very respectable!

I have four friends under 25, and one of them is a mother-so that obviously ended her partying days-at least for a while. LOL! The rest of my friends are yeah, 30-50 something-I don't care how old, or how young (b/c some of them act younger than I do and I coudl really learn how to do that more often) they are-they're my friends and family and I love them all quite dearly!

So, now that I've rambled on, there's not much else going on in my life right now-just pluggin' along in school, taking care of the house, and keepin' up with friends. I really need to meditate though, haven't done that in a while, maybe I'll go do that right now-really should!

I hope you all had a Happy Valentine's Day and remember that love is never in vain, never grows old and is always, always possible!**

Blessings all around!

In Light & Love,
-Sarah Liz :)

*41, emotionally speaking!

**But love, cannot and does not fix all, heal all and end all! Sorry-but it's true! (See that's my older/wiser mature-er Sarah coming out!) LOL!