Happy Birthday Donnie! I Love February!

I love February, aside from December and July (and October & May), LOL, Febrary is my next favorite month! Good things always happen to me in February and it's the month of the Amethyst birthstone (Purple) which is my favorite color (besides pink) so it's all wonderful!

And, February is a month of birthdays, one of which is my good friend, Donnie's! So, Happy Birthday Donnie! I cannot believe he is 28 today, man, that's mind-boggling! Donnie and I have been friends for my entire life-that's 22 years and counting-and I can remember him when he was about 11 or 12, we are six years apart-he'll always be older, but you know, I think I'll always be wiser-LOL! Just kidding! It's amazing that he's 28 today, and that we're still close friends. I called and wished him a very Happy Birthday and spoke with his fiancee', Erica, who is a very lovely, wonderful woman herself-I swear, if Donnie screws this up-he's dumber than I thought! In all seriousness, they are both doing wonderfully and are so happy and in love, and I couldn't be happier for them! I think he's finally found someone who will love him, grow with him and, yeah, put up with him. He's a great guy though, and hey, we ALL are "put up with," by our spouses/lovers-BUT, we all deserve the very best-and I believe that Donnie has found the best in Erica-I really do! They are considering getting married next month on the 19th when I'm crusing through California-which would be WONDERFUL! It would be totally awesome to see one of my oldest, and closest friends marry the love of his life! So cool! Anyhow, I hope he had a very Happy Birthday-only two years from 30-oh my god, and I'll be 25 in two years-scary!

Anyhow, on another friendship note, my good friend, Ellen, emailed me today after I had emailed her explaining my concern over our drifting friendship-it was so nice-she said she'd felt the distance too and had been missing me too and that we will be having a phone chat this coming weekend-which I'm so looking foward to! I just love Ellen, and we also have been extremely close friends-for almost three years now-and I was really starting to miss having her in my life. I don't let go of people easily-when it comes to friends-that's a good thing-it's called loyalty-I learned it from my mother. Not letting go of people for the wrong reasons isn't so great, but hey, we're all messed up deep down-it's admitting it and working to change it that counts right? Right!

So, yesterday was President's Day, and I must admit, I did not think of ONE President during the whole day-(but I have another chance tomorrow, on the 22nd, because that was actually President Washington's Birthday!) I had the BEST day-I laid around, messed around and just RELAXED! What a concept!

I've been working so hard on the house and errands and school-oh, best news of all-well, not BEST of all-but pretty darn good news anyway-I got a B+ (89%) on my paper for Poetry class! I am SO proud-I have not had a challenge like that in a long time and while I'm still not entirely sure of what I wrote-apparently, it made sense to my professor, and that's all that matters-GO SARAH, yay me, I'm so glad I stuck with it, stuck it out and am now reaping the benefits! So far, I have a B in the class, which is more than fine by me!

Getting back to Presidents, let's talk about the current one: today I learned that the President (current one, Pres. Bush) is selling our U.S. Ports to UEA, which is some United..E...Arab thing-you know, the people who helped finance Sept. 11th-as in, you know what I mean people (think, come on!) I can't believe this-Pres. Bush says he wants to fight the T-word-he wants to be the ANTI-*******sm President, he wants us to TRUST him, and YET....he sells our ports to the VERY people who HELPED FUND one of our nation's greatest tragedies-PU-LEASE! I'm no scholar, or politician, and I may only be 22, but come on, makes NO sense at all-sorry Mr. President, your losing this Nation's trust by the day-including mine! Don't get me wrong, this country is still great and full of freedom and privilages and all, but really, fight that T-word with supposed friends of the T-word, really, Bush, I thought you were with US-remember, "you're either with us, or against us," and what side are you on? You know it's funny, as I sit here and write this, I'm a bit nervous. I know the Government has complete and total access to this, as well as everything I post on the Internet, on my computer and heck, now even on my phone. Yep, our forefathers faught and died so our phone lines and living quaters could NOT be tapped or searched/sieizured without a warrant, reasoning or probable cause-and now what has happened, 230 years later? THIS President throws that ALL out the window and decides that HE can tap our phone lines any time he wants-whenever he pleases-becuase it's supposed to fight T***sm...well, see, that's a walking contradiction Mr. President, I mean really-tap MY phone lines, all while you sell our ports to the REAL T***. Ridiculous, Ludicrous and stupid, stupid, stupid! Okay, now that I've said all that, I will go on to more positive things....

I went out clubbing this weekend with my friend, JoJo*, and I actually did enjoy myself. No one hit on me, which is actually good considering that is NOT the place I would ever want to meet men-I don't care if they were the last men on earth-eww, no thanks! I swear they all shoudl just wear a sign that says "f*** me" on their foreheads-geeze! Oh well, I had to experience it firsthand, and I did! Besides, I think the men there were trying to figure out whether I had just turned 21 that day (I'm 22), had a really good fake I.D. or what..it was rather hilarious! I had a good time, but after an hour, it was like "okay, what now?" I can't say I'd do it again and again, but once in a blue moon-it's a real change of pace and scenery for me and it was kinda fun. After that, Jo and I went to the Martini Bar and she enjoyed a very potent Martini-compliments of me. Half way through it, she decided it was TOO potent and decided not to finish it, but she did reimburse me for the drink-so hey, that was fine. I didn't ask her to pay me for it, she offered, after refusing twice and going back and forth-I did take the money-I'm not gonna argue all night long! I didn't drink at all b/c I was driving-I'm always the D.D., but that's something I'm very proud of! We did have so much fun and she is a hoot to be with!

I also went and got my hair and nails done this weekend. I got a manicure (had a coupon for a $10-not gonna pass that up), and a hair cut-the lady did a really good job and I'm very happy with it. It's amazing what a little pampering will do for you-so indulgent and pretty and nice! It all felt great! :)

I rented some movies, "In Her Shoes," not so great, wouldn't see it again and am darn glad I didn't pay $9 at the movies to see it! Thank God!

Mom and I were going to put up my shelves, but didn't get to it, that's okay...I did clean the ENTIRE house and go grocery shopping on Thursday, and on Sunday, mom and I watched our shows "Desperate Housewives" and "Grey's Anatomy" which I'm actually begining to like MORE than DH. All in all, it was a great weekend! I'm loving my weekends so far this year-they've been just fun and relaxing and all around "totally awesome!" LOL!

Tonight, I sang, and I sang A LOT-in fact, I sang my little heart out-I haven't done that in a long time and sometimes I miss it. I love my life, I no longer want to be famous-and I know that in all reality I really can't sing-but you know what, I just don't give a damn. It's fun, it's an escape, it's cathardic and empowering-for a few minutes I get to forget my REAL life and pretend that I'm this great singer with a glamorous life-and I get to get lost in the music-how cool is that! Years ago I wanted that life more than anything in the world , now I don't, but it's fun to go back to those days, even if only for a few minutes....besides...who doesn't pretend they're something they're really not. I think we all do that-every time we walk out of our homes-we put on a mask and face the world differently than we are at home-and that's okay, it's normal and right and sensible to do that-and it's also okay to indulge in that occasional childhood fantasy...even though you know it'll never come true, and really don't want it to, it's cool to pretend for a while. I think if more adults re-learned how to play, and "make believe," every now and then, this world would be a lot less violent, hectic and chaotic. Just a thought...think about it!

On that note, I've filled my limit of fun for the day, time to wash my face, say my prayers and go to sleep!

I hope you all had as satisfying a day as I did!

And again, Happy Birthday Donnie!

Goodnight Y'all!

In Light & Love,
-Sarah Liz :)

*All these friends still just amaze me-I've never had so many my entire life! I had almost no freinds growing up, maybe one or two-never this many, never this deeply. I guess the abundance of my friends now makes up for that, and hey, back then, I wouldn't have appreicated it anyway and I didn't yet know how to be a friend back-and that's a such a huge part of friendship-it IS a two way street-and I think I am a good friend, I hope I am! I wouldn't trade one of my friends for anything in the world! They add to my life and make it so special-and I'm even more blessed because I get to call my real blood family (well, most of them) my real friends too-and that's the best part of all. We choose our friends, we don't choose our family-and sometimes our friends are the only family we have-either way, I wouldn't trade either of mine for anything! Thank you to all of you, you know who you are! I love y'all! -SL :)