Go With In...With Faith!

It's 10:34pm and I need to take a shower tonight before bed, but I felt compelled to write this short thing....for me, personally, whenever there's a major problem in my life, I tend to over dramatize things. Call me a drama queen (I hate that, I try so hard not to be), call me sensitive, call me a girl (well, that's very true), but still...I tend to over react. I can call all of my friends and conversate and cary on, ask their opinions, seek their advice and on and on and on...and God Bless every single one of them for puttin' up with it and listening, I mean, seriously, I sometimes wonder why they answer the phone when they know it's me. LOL! JUST KIDDING! In all seriousness, I would and I do, do the same for them when they need it (or at least I sure as heck try!).

Anyway, it came to me last night that in all reality, all I need to do is GO WITHIN! That's it.

Hang up the phone, turn off the TV, and PRAY. Sit, write, meditate, be still, and go with in. The answer, all the answers, are right there, but I must be willing to shut up long enough and stop moving long enough, to sit and listen.

I LOVE to write, it's theraputic and helpful. I can't not write. It's instrumental to my life! But I also need to just sit down, shut up and listen. Listen to myself, listen to my heart, listen to that inner voice that WILL and DOES ALWAYS guide me. The Light of God that never, ever fails; and it is my personal belief that that Light, and God, are with in. We can go around asking our friends, put our sounding boards into serious overtime, ignore the problem(s), yell, scream, cry, and pout...or we can just save ourselves a heck of a lot of time and go with in. So, my goal for this weekend is to just do that.

The next time I have a problem, whatever it may be, (because Lord know they never, ever, ever end), I'm going to sit down, shut up and go within. I'm going to listen, I'm going to have faith that God knows the plan, even I don't. Even I don't know it, and I don't like it, and I'm afraid of it....I'm going to have faith and go within!

After all, there really is something awful about fear, I read today that fear and insecurity are the worst things we can do to ourselves, and boy oh' boy is that ever true!

Fear is the absence of faith, and I'm a faithful person!

I'm FULL OF FAITH, and when I'm full of faith, I'm full of hope and full of love. And when I'm full of love, there is absolutely no room for judgement, fear or insecurity.

One of my favorite quotes is "when you judge someone, you don't have time to love them," and that's true. We're so wired to judge though, as human beings, I mean, if we didn't judge, we would cease to exist. Judging is natural, but then again so are a lot of things, it doesn't make them right or good. But, I digress.

I'm inspired today by God, and my creator, and yes, I'll say it, I'm inspired by Christ. Although I've never considered myself a church-going Christian, I still love, worship and believe in Jesus Christ. Jesus, in my opinion, was not so much the Savior as the director. Yes, Jesus is a Savior, and because I'm Christian, I fully believe He died for my sins; however, I don't think his legacy ends there. I think Jesus' legacy is more about how to live, how to treat others and how to reserect one's self.

I didn't expect this entry to become so religous, and I ditest that term, "religious." It makes me sound like a narrow minded, Bible-thumping, idiot. My boyfriend called me religious the other day, and I jumped at him for it. But, you know what, on some level, yes, I am religious, and that's okay.

I'd rather be spiritual and religious than completely lacking in faith.

I'd rather be faithful, than faithless.

While every single person is entirely free to believe what they choose, I have never understood Athiests. Well, sometimes I can, like when I turn on the news and see all of the hunger, starvation, and just plain weird crap in this world today, yeah, I can see where someone would have trouble believing in a God.

But, for me, when push comes to shove, it is my faith that has saved me. Faith is what makes me. Without faith, I wouldn't be alive.

Faith is what begins when science fails.

Faith is what kicks in when all other hope is gone.

Faith is the courage to believe in something and someone bigger and better than you.

Faith is beautiful.

And for me, Faith is absolutely, completely necessary and required.

My life wouldn't and couldn't work if I didn't have faith.

Yes, I question it. Yes, I deny it, even, we all have. But, at the end of the day, it's about faith and gratitude. Faith allows me to believe that even with as awesome as this day was, tomorrow will be even better. Faith allows me to believe that God is in control, and because of that, I don't always have to be. (What a relief that is!)

I believe that God created me in His image, and though I'm not perfect yet, striving to be more like Him; loving, hopeful, faithful, less egotistical; it certainly can't hurt. Who doesn't want to be remembered like that?

I want to be remembered like that. I don't think I'm going anywhere anytime soon, but just in case, I have faith about that too, but that's another entry!

It's time for bed. I sign off every entry by thank the Lord for another beautiful day, and today is no different. It was a gorgeous 57* day here today, the warmest in about two weeks. I got to see my boyfriend, we got along, had sweet kisses and just enjoyed one another. I got to see my mother, go get food at the grocery store, and bring it home and eat it! And now, I get to log off here, walk into my shower, get clean and refreshed and get into a nice warm bed. I truly am blessed! So, even though I say it every day (even if I don't write an entry on here), when I thank the Lord for everything, I truly mean it! And that is the most faithful statement I can make!

So, once again, thank you Lord for everything; my family, my friends, my health, my home, my happiness and my faith! Please help me to remember that going within is what matters most--and that before all else, You, are in control! I'll do my best to do my part and not lose one ounce of gratitude towards You, who makes everything possible!

Goodnight and God Bless!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)