So Sweet!
It's 11:10pm, and I'm tired. But, I still wanted to post today, just something....anything really. The whole day today was just sweet. I was thinking about my life and Carla and the kind of woman she was, she was a sweet, strong, wonderful woman. I miss her already. In other topics, the weather today was windy, cloudy and chilly--we only reached 65*, compared to yesterday's 81*, that's cold. But hey, in two months, when it's 95*, 100* and beyond, I'll be beggin' for 65* weather. LOL! It's refreshing to say the least! Anyway, like I said, I was just thinking today about Carla, and underprivilaged children, and you know what, my life is pretty nice. It's sweet n' precious and so are the poeple in it! I've had a fantastic, blessed life that continues to humble me to pieces. My life has been amazing and wonderful, and while I have so much I want to do, and see and say (as usual), my life, is just sweet. So is my boyfriend. Of course, he's a man, and drives me absolutely crazy somtimes, but he's a sweet man, a nice man, and I'm lucky. But, he's entirely blessed and lucky to have me also! Totally lucky! I'm glad that we know that about each other! I mean that sincerely. So yes, beautiful, lovely, and sweet. That's my life! And right now, I'm going to go crawl into my warm bed and get a good night's rest--I need it. I've had trouble breathing the last few days, I sure hope I'm not getting sick. Not being to breathe is so incredibly scary, and worriesome, I hate it. I don't use the word 'hate' very often, but I do, I hate not being able to breathe. I think it's the wather, my body hates it when the weather makes drastic changes overnight (literally). Yes, asthma attacks totally suck. The way I have look at it is this: there ARE worse things (although breating really is a requirement for life) and it doesn't happen everyday (normally), at least I'm alive to feel the asthma attacks and have the medicine to help them! Well, this entry is officially over, and once agian, it's time for bed. Thank you Lord for everything! Goodnight and God Bless!
In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)
posted by Sarah at 11:09 PM
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from Sarah Liz....
The Epilogue:
Yes, I know I talk a lot about the same darn things--all the time. And my love and appreciation for my life, and my family/friends/boyfriend might sound sugar-coated and get real annoying, real fast. I get that. Looking over these entries, it's quite clear that I'm totally in love with my life! That I'm blessed and that I know it.
But, I'm sure some of you would like to know..... DO I EVER GET MAD? DO I GET DISCOURAGED? AM I EVER UNHAPPY OR DEPRESSED? To which I have to say--YES!!! Absolutely YES!!! I DO have my OFF days, my bad-mood moments and my TOTAL DISGUST with the world around me. Absolutely! There are tiems when I want to literally smack those dear family/friends of mine across the room! There are moments when I think if my boyfriend says one more sarcastic comment, I'm going to seriously hit him upside the head (but I don't and never will). I get annoyed with people and sincerely saddened by the pure injustice of this world.
However, I simply choose to see the glass 'half-full,' and realize the everyday miracles that go on in this life--especially mine!
I truly believe that despite its hardships, heartache, and complete bullshit, life really is a miracle. Carla's death reminded me of that. I knew it from a very young age, and I still know it, I hope to never forget it. But, just for the record, I'm NOT ALWAYS happy. I can be a total bitch, a brat, and a huge pain in the butt. I'm a woman. Duh! But there's enough written about all of that stuff. There's enough 'down' stories or 'complaint list' blogs out there, I don't feel the need to be one of them. As for annoying my loved ones, I know for sure I do. Just like everyone else, I get pissy and cranky , impatient and angry. But at the end of the day, I figure, why waste time on all of that. Life's just too short and too amazing! Complaining doesn't help anything, it creates negativity, and I have a STRONG dislike for negativity. Joyce Meyer once said that "complaning is death, thanks giving is life," I choose to give thanks; therefore, I choose life. So I may be stupididly perky and upbeat, butI'm not that way all the time, really. There ARE problems in the world, there are real, actual problems, I agree. But, you know what, I can't fix the world, I can't change it by complaining about it. I think that my optimism and own happiness (though it's not all about me) makes things better. The world can't be fixed, but, perhaps, by being a kinder, gentler and more optimistic person, I can make it a better place in my own small way. Hey, it doesn't hurt to try!!!
Blessings,
-Sarah Liz
(Yes, I posted a comment to myself!)
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