Sunday Morning Wedding Plans!

Sunday, January 18, 2009


About the poems...
Current mood: inspired

One thing I've always tried to be good at, and one thing I've had a few people notice about me, is my ability to be in the moment.

Well, I try.

I think one of the keys to eleviating stress is to BE in the moment, whatever it may be, be in the moment completely.

Feeling whatever you need to feel and making no apologies for it. (How you ACT , and what you SAY, in each moment, despite its possible difficulty, is a different story).

It's not about what happened yesterday, or what could possibly happen tomorrow. Right now, this moment, this is all we have. It's our only gaurantee.

I'm trying to remember that. I need to remember that.

So, for me, the way I'm dealing with the stress of wedding planning and life itself right now...is by just noticing my surroundings. Just taking stock of what's truly around me.

Sometimes, I focus in on one object, other times, a feeling.

The poetry flowing out of me lately, I know, is (more than likely) not my best work.

But it's me. It's real and it's honest. I have no intention of making it "correct," or "perfect," or even relatble to others for that matter.

Writing is a deeply personal experience, and what we writers choose to write about at any given moment, doesn't always have to be universal.

I'm giving myself permission lately to write about whatever comes out. Whatever pops into my mind and lands on the paper (or the screen in most cases) is what I'm going to write.

So, with that in mind, please forgive me, if it's not best work.

If my sentences aren't complete or propper--oh well. Not that they were begin with, but I digress! (Laughing to myself).

I just want to remember this time. Capture it fully.

And the best way to rise above the stress is to take it one moment at a time.

That is honestly one of my greatest fears about my wedding day, not remembering it. Most brides I know do not. They don't remember a thing. Sure, they remember being a bit nervous and very happy, and maybe even having some fun. But I want to remember my wedding day completely. I want to look back on it and smile wide when I do! I want it to be one of the best days of my life and just enjoy it! I want to get out of my own darn way and let it happen and it happens. I can't control everything, least of all the weather, and I can't get all bitchy and 2 year old-ish if EVERY single thing doesn't go my way that day! Yes, I'm the Bride, I'm important, I'm kind of the star of the day....and my groom as well, but you know what I mean! But, still...I want to be present for the day, and most of all....I don't want it to come too fast! I'm so enjoying this process, and everything about it. I have the rest of my life to be married, I want to slow down and ENJOY this special time in our lives. (It is a special time in his too, I've not forgotten that. I just think I'm, perhaps, more emotional about it simply because I am a woman.)

That is one of my biggest lessons that has come from planning this wedding. Enjoying the moment as it is. If I can learn here and now, and keep putting it into practice, how to really know to focus on the moment and be real and honest about what it is I'm experiencing (physical, emotional, spiritual or otherwise), than I will know how to do it later on down the road when life gets really chaotic! I will know how to do it the day of our wedding and from the on.

If I can learn this and practice this now, than I will no doubt be saving myself from a lifetime of stress and insanity!

That's not say I'm ALWAYS in the moment, or that I don't have my melt-downs. Believe me, I do. I'm human. We're all entitled to some craziness now and then!

But along with chaos there CAN be a calm. Along with being stressed can come the realization of being blessed. If I am willing to be still and quiet, and LISTEN to the messages here, the lessons, the experience, I can learn so very much!

I can start building the tools (while planning our wedding) that will end up helping our marriage at some point. And that's what I hope.

As self-centered as I can get, and Brides in general are, I hope I can keep looking for the bigger picture; the clearer message and the grand lessons through it all.

This experience is bringing me closer to myself, to my loved ones, and to God.

It's teaching me new things and it's showing me my own true colors; as well as the true colors of others. I am so grateful to be living this experience.

Even if I'm having the total freak-out moment where I throw all of this "calm, zen, lesson," stuff out the window... I just want to live it and enjoy it!

Mostly because I only plan on doing this wedding thing once, and I really am starting to believe that how one conducts themselves through the process of planning a wedding, well, it can be the building blocks for the quality of the marrige that follows. I may be wrong, but we'll see!

In closing, I'd just like to say that my biggest lesson so far at 25 years experienced, 18 days into 2009 is this: there is room for everything. There's an up and a down and a yin and a yang to EVERYTHING in life. There is yin and yang, happiness and sarrow, joy and sadness, love and dislike, it all goes together. Last year, at 24, I learned that nothing is ever 110% good or 110% bad, and also, that nothing is ever what it seems. Now, I'm living that!

The point is, I'm living this journey, and writing poetry is a part of that. The poems that ensue may not be grand or conventional. But they are what they are, and I'm going to just let them be. I'm going to write my little heart out and without abandon. And I'm going to feel good about doing so.

Thank you, Lord, for the journey. For the gift of words and writing and poetry--certainly not just my own. Thank you, Lord, For this walk with You, this walk with Colin and of course, the amazing people making it all possible! Please continue to bless it all!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)

A snapshot of my life, and my view--literally--this Sunday morning! Enjoy!

Sunday Morning Wedding Plans!

The warmth of Sunday morning sunlight,
glasses on, laptop humming
my kitchen table covered with notebooks;
paper tablets, cosmetics guides,
and lots of scribbled on paper.
Jotting down figures and
keeping it all straight-
an example of organized chaos
cluttered it may be,
much like my mind,
but pure and real in its intentions
I want the best in life,
I want the best possible experience I can get.
The latter of which,
I know I must make for myself.
Number crunching and list checking
over and over and over again.
To my right,
sits a white cup, filled with
lukewarm dark coffee
my best friend as of late.
To my left,
A tall, thin water glass,
with a handle on it,
it's clear and refreshing.
Stay hydrated, get plenty of rest...
don't let the stress become you.
You'd think I was sick or something.
I'm not.
I'm just embarking on a journey like none other.
I'm planning my wedding!

(C) 2009 Sarah Liz
January 18th, 2009