Be the Girlfriend!

My lesson for today, be the girlfriend. Be the independent, intelligent, beautiful girlfriend who isn't always around or available. The other night, Colin and I had a long talk (yes, my boyfriend actually talks-yay!) and when I asked him what made me girlfriend material, he was honest. He's always honest, brutally honest, sometimes, too honest, I think, but I love it! He said "I don't know why guys can't figure you women out? You're not that complicated, all we have to do is be honest. Even if you don't want to hear it, I'm going to say it, period. Because honest works, the rest does not." Can I just say "Thank you God!" Finally! My nickname in High School was "Sarah-no tell me how you really feel-Liz" LOL! I'm always honest, I'm known for my politness, for being a lady, but I'm also known for being honest, for not dicing my words, for telling it like it is. It's so refreshing to have that same trait in my partner! Anyway, aside from my physicalities such as my hair, my butt, my eyes, my petiteness, Colin said that I didn't talk a lot for a woman (really? That was odd to hear, but very cool, no one's ever said that!) and that when I did, I said the right things. I was intelligent and confidant. I made myself available, let it be known that I was interested, but not overly clingy. Two and a half months later, THAT'S the part I need to remember. Make myself availble, but not clingy. Be the girlfriend, Sarah, not the live-in! LOL! We spent the entire weekend together, and it was wonderful, I enjoyed every moment of it, but last night, when I wasn't there, I enjoyed that too. Today, I'm enjoying it as well. Tomorrow, I may actually get some things done, and we can see each other Friday. Give one another a chance to miss eachother. I loved being at his place this weekend, I loved that when his friend came to visit him, it was my lotion on the counter, my shoes by the door. What I loved more was that HE put my lotion on the counter (I had it under the sink), HE had hung up a towel for me, HE lets me be totally at home in HIS place. I love that! That proves that he loves me. But, that also proves that now, I have to step back and continue letting him come to me. Be the girlfriend. Colin said that one of the things he liked best about me was that I was polite, I'm a lady. THANK YOU! And please, babe, tell my mother that! She'll be so pleased! That's very cool, actually, I took that as one heck of a compliment! So, anyway, I've been 23 for a month today, which means there's only 11 months until I'm 24, what the heck happened? I'm not sure I want to actually publish this entry, don't want him (Colin) to read this. Catch my secrets. That's not cool. But I do think I've got this pretty figured out. I found a great song called "Love is A Trip," by Sarah Buxton. Here's the link, http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=45203143, very cool, very true song! Gotta run, have things to do....thank you Lord for everything! God Bless!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)

P.S. UPDATE:
March 26th, 2007....yesterday I asked Colin why he is so comfortable talking about our future and why he is so sure about it. He just is. Sometimes, it wierds me out. We talked about a lot of things and one of the thing he said is "I like the girlfriend thing," meaning, he likes having a girlfriend, particularly, THIS girlfriend, particularly ME!!! :) Yay! We always joke about his 'other' girlfriend and my 'other' boyfriend, none of which is even remotely true, and sometimes it's funny, and sometimes it's not. It's cool that we're secure enough with each other to joke like that and sort of test one another's sense of humor and committment simaltaneously. Anyway, in the car I said "you are aware that I COULD get other guys, right. I don't want any, I won't and I have no desire to, but just so you know, I could." He goes 'yes, I know that, and don't you think I forget it.' See, that's AWESOME!!! I'm glad he likes the girlfriend thing, because I like the boyfriend thing. And I like this boyfriend, I like him being my boyfriend, best of all!!! Goodnight! -SL :)