All is right with the world again & Happy Anniversary(s)!!!

Confession: my mother and I spent the last few weeks arguing and fighting and going 'round and 'round, and I know, I'm getting married and growing up and things are obviously going to change because of that, and they should. But, my mom and I fight/argue sooo rarely, that when we do, it's really, really weird. I don't like fighting with her, I think, mainly because I really don't like fighting with anyone period, and well, she's my MOM...you know, no matter how bad the fight or how horrible the words that come out of our mouths may be; she's my mother, I can't tell her to **** off, and I can't get rid of her, nor can she get rid of me, I'm her kid. Not that either of us would EVER want to do this life without each other, but still. The relationship between parent and child; and especially the relationship(s) between a mother and daughter are forever complicated, and when you're engaged, if often becomes even more complicated than it was to begin with. It's rough, sometimes, but no matter what, I really and truly would not ever, ever, ever trade my mother for anyone else on this planet! She IS the reason I was born, survived all that I did and is much of the reason I am who I am today; good, bad or indifferent! So, I'm sorry, mom, I forgive you and I love you, always, always, always--no matter what! And yes, I know that you love me too, always, always, alwyas, no matter what! Now that that's been said and re-established, all is right with the world again! Not to mention my Colin and I are getting along fabuously well too! That's not unusual for us, but it is nice! We very quietly (as in totally un-eventful but nice none the less) celebrated a year and a half together yesterday, May 15th!!! Our first date was November 15th, 2006......A year and a half, wow! I can barely believe it! I love him so much, HE makes me world ALL RIGHT as well!!! I'm a very lucky lady! I did some laundry today and relaxed and got hit on while me and my groceries were being escorted to my car!!! I love that! Yep, I totally got hit on and while I would NEVER act on anything, it's still really nice to know that I'm attractive to other men; I mean, I can be cute, and I'm certainly not ugly, but still, it's definately a pick-me-up when it happens! Sure, I know my Colin finds me attractive and really, his (and my own) opinion is the only one(s) that really matter, but still. I KNOW he gets hit on at work sometimes, he's a good lookin' guy, and can be very charming and cute, I mean, he got me, right?! But, it's nice to know that although we have each other and love each other beyond words and are getting married and are faithful to each other and will always remain so, it's still nice to know that we ARE capable of being sexy and attractive to the oposite sex! It felt really good to get asked out tonight and most of all, it felt even BETTER to say "sorry, but I'm going to go spend the evening with my husband, but thank you." (Yes, I know, I'm not ACTUALLY married yet, but close enough and heck, if you say that you're engaged to most people their response is "but you're not married, yet," but we are, in our hearts, we are totally married) THAT was the best part! I LOVE that!!! The guy that hit on me wasn't that cute anyway, but still, it was nice to be asked. Come to think of it, that's rarely happened to me ever, usually, I was the one who asked men out, never had a problem with it and always did so in my former dating life! SO glad that's over with though, whew, what a relief!!! :) Seriously, no more games, no more "is he/isn't he?" and on and on! Come to think of it, marriage (or engagement) DOES involve some games, but none like the dating kind, thank God! There's nothing like the feeling of knowing you have a best friend and a partner to go home to, who's in your corner and on your side, no matter what! THAT beats any dating high, EVER!!! Seriously! Of course, that doesn't mean that that best friend/partner can't/doesn't drive you up the freakin' wall sometimes, we're all human, but still, it's totally, completely and absolutely worth it!!! Over and over and over again! I'm so happy!!! I'm happy for me and Colin, that we made it a whole year and a half and that we're getting married in less than ten months! Yay! Life is good! Being a housewife, or one in training, is much harder than I thought it would be, at times, but it's a lot of fun too!!! I like helping take care of my man and I like him taking care of me! It's fun, it fits, it's....cool!!! Speaking of anniversaries, Happy Anniversary to my Grandma Elizabeth & Grandpa Henry; they've been married 6 years today, SIX YEARS, man, I was 18 and not even out of High School when they got married, and now, I'm getting married, who'd a thunk it?! I know, horrible English, I really did graduate High School, with 29 college credits actually, but anyway....back to grandma and Henry, Happy Anniversary you two, I love you so much, thanks for the inspiration and advice and proving that you're really never too old for true love!!! Here's to many more anniversaries, for all of us, grandma and Henry, me and my Colin and all other wonderful couples out there!!! Thank you Lord for my many blessings and sunnier attitude, You totally rock!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)