Grandma, Invitations, and an Eve of Change!

I feel the need to write something down right now. I needed a break. I've been going non-stop since 7 this morning and I'm tired. I woke up, took a shower, went with Colin to his doctor's appointment, had a very nice & enjoyable lunch with him, went and okayed the invitations, had them printed out and picked them up! Then I came home; organized the recycled bins, wiped down the tables downstairs and made a few phone calls. I did manage to sit down for about 30 minutes, so I guess I haven't been going non-stop. But, I figure as worried as I am...and as excited as I am...and as I tired as I am...it's probably best to just keep moving right now...and then fall into bed later tonight! Looking forward to that, but it's Monday, so it's change the sheets nights in my house! Clean sheets will be a most welcome treat this evening! My grandma is in the hospital; apparently, she has some kind of infection; last week it was a kidney infection and today, she told me it's a stomach infection. I'm worried. I'm not scared or stressed out to the max, I know that the Lord will take care of her...as will her wonderful husband. But, i yi yi yi....she's older now and takes longer to heal and I just want her well. No, I need her well. I have to have my grandmother well and healthy at our wedding! Please pray that that happens! Thanks, I appreciate it! This morning, Colin's doctor appointment went really well! I really, really, really like his doctor; so much so, that I'm probably going to start going to her! She's very well-versed, professional, friendly and competant! He had bloodwork this morning and is going to have X-rays next week (after a paycheck) and so we'll see how that all comes out. She also wants (the Dr.) a CAT Scan on his stomach and back....which is all fine & dandy, except....well, with a wedding coming up, we don't have the money. So we're going to wait a LITTLE bit on those---and have them done VERY soon after the wedding UNLESS the blood/x-ray results decide otherwise. Anyway, the appointment itself went well and I was very satisfied with the plan of action and especially with the fact that Colin went to begin with! Thank you, honey! So, tonight, as I write, it's Martin Luther King Jr. day as well as the eve of the Innaguration of the new President Elect Obama....this is Bush's last night in the White House. Wow. 8 years...I wish him, Mrs. Bush and all their family well, I really do. But, bye-bye Bush, and hello Obama! I'm hoping Obama can put action behind all of his eloquent speeches, that he can actually deliver on some of the promises he's made. I'm not 100% positive, but then again, look at the sheer mess he's stepped into. I wouldn't want to trade places for him, that's for sure! I'll keep my political beliefs to myself, but just like I've prayed for President Bush all these years, so I will pray for President Obama as well! I'm an American, and that's what we're supposed to do! And it's what I want to do. The President will need a lot of prayers--now and always! Anyway, I wonder how the country will change, how the world will change and what's ahead for our nation. I'm sitting on pins and needles tonight, on the brink of major national change....I'm also sitting on the brink of great personal change! My Wedding Invitations go out tomorrow....yes, they'll be on their way! And while I'm not nervous about marrying Colin, there's something very real and odd hitting me tonight. I know Colin & I are doing the absolute right thing, I know we will overcome anything, and I don't doubt the two of us at all. But, once those invitations go out, there's like no going back. And that's steep. Talking, planning, dreaming, scheming...all very real and good and wonderful; truly, sending out invitations and making it PUBLICALLY real.....also real and good and wonderful, and a time for pause and reflection and tremendous EXCITEMENT! The truth is, I really am so beyond excited I can't even put it into words...I'm getting married and our wedding will be wonderful! But, it's funny, I'm sitting here, on the eve of sending out MY OWN wedding invitations...I'm not receiving someone else's, I'm not planning to attend someone else's....it's MINE (and Colin's). This time, it's OUR turn. It's OUR wedding. It's Us who are the stars! I can't believe this time has come so fast. As I was okay-ing the proof of the invitation in the store today (Colin was working) it hit me very hard; in a good, peaceful, and yes, tad bit sad way too. I'm standing here giving the okay on MY wedding invitations. Mine. and Colin's too, of course! Our lives will be quite different now....we won't just be calling each other husband and wife, we will BE husband and wife. And that's amazing! Last night, I was planning what I wanted the ceremony to be like; what I wanted said and mentioned. The vows, the poems, the readings. Not a long one, let's not be rude. But, I think the ceremony is the most important part of a wedding, it's the whole reason for it! And I want it to be special. I want to be a reflection of both me and Colin and our love, of our time so far and our future ahead. How exciting and liberating and wonderful and everything all at once! Anyway, enough writing...I've mentioned all that I need too....I need to get back to the house work and invitations....it's time to DO and NOT think so much right now.....I've done enough of that lately, and I have time to think later--I always do and Lord knows I will! Anyway, please pray for my grandma and her continued health and recovery, and please, Lord, please, watch over my grandma....care for her, take care of her and surround all of us with Your love and grace and forgiveness and mercy! Thank you for the tremendous love, beauty and little miracles that make up my life! Bless it all!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)