Turns out...I still don't like August...and honestly, August 2009 was one of the worst of my life!

I promised myself that I wouldn't write anything negative today. I'm trying to get back to my old self and be all positive and optimistic. But on August 1st I wrote about how I don't like August, and that perhaps, this August will change that perception. Well, I was wrong. This last month (August 2009) was one of the most difficult of my life. It was a time like none other and although I'm truly grateful for the lessons and the growth and the strength and blessings it ultimately brought--I am so glad it's over and I would never do it again! Sometimes, I'm glad we can't rewind life.

Colin and I got a car that turned out to be one of the worst mistakes we've ever made. It was an absolute nightmare and we don't even have the car, to this day! I can't talk much more about right now because of private reasons, but all I can say is--DO NOT go to Findlay Kia of West Sahara in Las Vegas!

We moved, the move was a nightmare. Completely a nightmare! It ended up taking FIVE days, two of which my mom was in the hospital. We ended up having to move most of our stuff ourselves in our cars (one of which we dind't have, remember!).

Colin and I both could not get access to our meds that we so desperately needed, and so we spent most of the month taking turns going crazy on each other. Okay, mostly it was me going crazy on him and him being a real man and making it all better. But, still. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks and stress. It sucked.

My mom had a stroke. Granted, it was a small one, a TIA as they called it. But it was right in the middle of moving and it was absolutely one of the scariest things I've ever seen. She was not the nicest patient in the hospital and her and I spent most of her time there arguing over whether or not she needed to be there in the first place. Which she did. And she realizes that now, thank God! She's okay, but it was horrible. Absolutely horrible.

Money--not having enough coming in, too much of it going out. Not different from anyone else's plot right now, but it sucked. Totally, utterly sucked.

Grandma being in and out of the hospital--BOTH of them, for different reasons. Thank the good Lord, and He is good, (sorry if I questioned you, Lord, though I always knew you were there!), they're okay now. They're both at home resting comfortably and recooperating nicely!

Having things broken and completely not working in our new place. Oh, and having no Internet, and no way to get it, for 10 straight days. How did we ever live without it? Oh, and also, not getting our mail for seven days so we were late on bills. But without the Internet, we couldn't have paid them on time anyway.

All and all, August just SUCKED! I'm sorry, but it did. And again, I'm glad it's over. Things ARE improving, medications are back and working and everyone ended up alive and well.

All's well that ends well I guess, but I never want to have so much crap happen in the span of 30 days again. No thank you, Lord. I've quite enough strength and character for now!

Thank you, though, dear Lord, for getting us through it all. For helping us dig our way out of our mutual and personal ruts. And for shinning Your light on all of us so that we could see how grand You really are! For forgiving us when we questioned you, for showing us tremendous grace and mercy. And for being a loving, supporting, never yeilding God who needed to prove that You take care of everything--on Your timeframe. Most of all, Lord, thank for letting everyone live. For the sheer miracles You made happen and keeping us all alive and well through it all!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)