What Do We Really Know? We're Sooooooo Busy, THANK YOU'S & What's On My Mind @ 2am!

Ok, what the heck do we know? What do I know? What does ANYONE know? Every single time we read, see, hear or learn something, we end up re-learning it later on. And at any given moment, one person can have at least 100 things on their minds. And as far as schedules? Heck, we are ALL busy...we're all leading crazy, hectic, busy lives! When do we EVER slow down? Do we ever have a real and honest DAY OFF? Even our days off have become working days....isn't it sad? There's ALWAYS, ALWAYS something to do, and places to go......I really need to write more about this, but at this percise moment.......

Here's what's on my mind right now.....ready?

Bills, how am I gonna pay ALL of my remaining bills for the month AND pay my mom back?

Car, I need to get it washed and my oil changed very soon.

My closet, it's a MESS, I really need to clean it out & get rid of even more crap I don't need!

Minnie Doll needs a run in the washer, she's filthy!

I need to clean out under my bathroom counter and clean the sink too!

Mmm, clean the shower as well.

Go through tapes on desk.

Write in this blog more often.

Get shelf from grama for picture frames and pictures.

Pay credit card bill.

Put money in bank tomorrow.

Call JoJo about procedure and bills.

Tomorrow's endoscopy, what will happen, how will it go, will the medical team I get be nice and courteous and BELIEVE what I say!

Get sun shield thingy for my car.

Have dinner with mom this weekend.

Not miss Desperate Housewive's and Grey's Anatomy Season Finales on Sunday.

Call Auto Insurance America and request quote.

Call Hyundai about possible trade in for cheaper payment, see what my options are.

Charge cell phone, buy another ear piece for it as well as car charger.

Get rid of old books I don't read.

Change sheets this coming week.

Scan ALL cards I've given to Hugh and mom in the last two months or so.

Take shower in the morning.

No coffee in the morning b/c of procedure @ 1:30pm....

it's just cruel to make a person FAST for that long! Can't eat after Midnight, totally sucks! Why can't/don't they do these things in the morning? I really can rise early in the morning for surgery and or travel....

Call Dad about trip to Oregon next month, check on airfare rates again.

Plan trip to Reno next month! Ask Grama for Gas Card.

Cancel one class for this fall at CCSN.

Refill Rx's this coming week.

Take Paxil tonight, and Zyrtec in the morning.

Remove blue toe nail polish from toes b4 procedure tomorrow.

Talk to Dr. again about recent female problem, and going back on the low fat diet or possibly seeing Nutritionist.

Take Living Will to Dr's procedure tomorrow........

Take Medical List to Dr's procedure tomorrow......

Print them out!

Check email for reply from Mr. Towell and friends from TY Board.

Check TY Board.

Check Account.

Take SMALL bag, NOT purse, to hospital tomorrow......

Pack that.....

Take disposable camera into Wal Mart this weekend to get developed.....

Talk to mom about HER health, etc....

Pay mom back money I owe her.....

Pay credit card bill.....

Call sisters again this weekend....

Call Ellen, Nancy & Matt this weekend

Apologize for Hugh for being such a bitch today.....sorry honey....

I THINK that's it!!!

See, we ALL have SO much to do, take care, clean, empty, check, call, see, go and take care of.....no WONDER we're all stressed.......

Anyhow, I needed to write about all this before I went and meditated...I hear that if you write your worries down before bed and meditation you reap their benefits better....I think that's true, we'll see......

Please pray for me tomrorow, and that all goes well. God forbid if something should happen, I've had a GREAT, FABULOUS and BLESSED LIFE!!! I've loved, been loved and had FUN and MIRACLES each and everyday!

My advice for life is......

Trust your instincts, LIVE ONE DAY at a time, and take it as it comes. MAKE THE BEST OF IT.......WE CREATE OUR FURTURE and WE CREATE OUR HAPPINESS!!!!

Today was a GREAT day! I found $25 while CLEANING my room, hung out with my mom, made SOME peace with Ricky, drove around with Hugh and had GREAT pizza! I sang, drove with the windows down, pet my Nellie cat, talked to Betty and my grama E., and saw the sunshine, trees, mountains and fresh air!!!!

It was a WONDERFUL day!!! :) Now, it's time for a close.....goodnight, goodluck and GREAT health!!!!

Forgive me if I'm rambling and not making ANY sense, it's 2am, and well, I gotta sleep, but first, I meditate......

Before that though, I need to thank the following people......

I have NOTHING but LOVE, JOY, HAPPINESS and pure n' honest GRATITUDE for the following people and blessings in my life....and I need to say a bit about them.......

Mama, thank you for EVERYTHIING: for being there, your love, support, listening, advice, meals, laundry, massages, lessons and shared laughter and tears! For always being there, fighting with me, for me and by me. For believing in me, being proud of me, and for letting me make my own mistakes. For the fun and the memories and the furture great times we'll share! You are my best friend, my cheerleader, encourager and sometimes maid! Words cannot express all that you've done, continue to do, and will do in the future, neither can words express my love, appreciation, gratitude, and resepct that I have for you. I hope you know HALF of the love and gratitude in my heart that's all for and just for YOU! Mama, you are the best, I thank you and I love you!

Hugh, babe, I really do love you with all my heart. Please know that. You too are my best friend, you and mom. Honey, thank you for loving me so much, showing me who I am, what I want and don't want and for always, always being there and understanding and accepting and forgiving. For putting up with me and my moods, for making me constantly laugh, for caring and crying right along with me, for the tender embraces, sweet kisses, loving eyes and gentle touch. For your loyalty and love and everything else, I thank you and I love you!

My grama E. a true and total Godsend. For being my spiritual leader, my encourager, supporter, confidant and constant rescuer. You are truly amazing and I love you more than words can say!

My grama J. what a crack up you are, thank you also for your love, support, ears, laughs and prayers. I love you so much.

Dad, not always connecting, but always full of love. I'm so glad we're becoming better friends and are getting closer, I'm so looking foward to seeing you next month and getting to know you better! Thanks for my sisters and for loving me also, I love you!

Kelsey, Jordan, & Joely: the loves, the lights, and the true joys of my life! You three are my inspiration and motivation for it all. You keep me going and I absolutely cannot express my joy and excitement about seeing you next month! You are true ladies, true loves and truly special sisters. I love you more than you will ever know!!!!

My friends: Ellen, Betty, Nancy, Matt, Debbie, Melanie, Tiffany, for your constant love, support, prayers and encouragement! You mean more to me than you know and I cherrish the poeple you are the friendships we share. The times you've been there, listening, good and bad, pretty and ugly, my God, how DO you put up with me? You're amazing, thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!

Nellie Marie, my joy, my soft cuddly best friend, my cute sweetie pie: for your meows, conversations and constant love and entertainment, I love you baby. You're mama's girl without a doubt! Thanks for always being there, 24h/7daw for the past 11+ years! Wow!

And, last but not least, actually first, THANK YOU GOD, for getting me THROUGH it, OVER it and for ALWAYS knowing what's BEST, what's PLANNED, and exactly what I need! Thank you for leading me and loving me, forgiving me and drenching me in Your Spirit. I love you more than anyone or anything, and I owe my life and all of it's good, strong and blessed points to YOU! All things are possible through YOU! Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

That's all folks, nighty, night, see y'all tomorrow!!!

Many Blessings,
SL