You Get What You Give

Okay, without sounding negative or angry, b/c as you know I'm working REALLY hard not to go there and be most positive, spiritual and enlightened. Time to get out the Bible and the singing bowl-whew! Even still, I'm human and I just need to rant & vent, so please indulge me for a moment.
I HATE CONSISTENT NEGATIVITY. It's so stupid and SUCH a waste of time. I think half of the worlds illnesses could be solved if people just changed their state of mind. Sure, vent occasionally, dont' store it up, vent it and then MOVE ON and LET IT GO! There's a definite mind/body connection, and even phsyicians will tell you that. I didn't survive all that I have medically by being a downer, negative and always seeing the glass half empty. I firmly believe that in life, we get what we give. How we think and feel has a DIRECT affect on our health! Think about it, disease-DIS-EASE! Hello!
Besides that, when a person sends out negativity, hopelessness, low self-esteem, and an all around bad attitude, that it is exactly what they will receive back from the world. DUH! Every action has a reaction! An attitude of gratitude does absolute WONDERS people, I know that first hand!
No, life is NOT easy, and there are times it does totally suck-but it's those tests that make us stronger. Life is NOT about constant peace and happiness, it's about CREATING moments of happiness and peace. It's about CREATING your own path, CREATING the good and positive and learning from the bad.
For instance, moments of happiness can include enjoying your cup of coffee in the morning, or hearing your favorite song on the radio, or talking to an old friend. Those are moments of happiness, and you have to purposely create them. Then, at the end of the day, you string those moments of happiness together and go "hey, I was happy today."
People are treated as they allow themselves to be treated. If they feel they're not worthy, likeable, or no better than the dirt on the ground-well, that's how they'll be treated. We are treated exactly how we allow ourselves to be. If you don't respect yourself, and don't demand that respect from others, than you won't get it. The phrase "you gotta love yourself before anyone else can love you," is SO true!
People constantly hold themselves back in life so they can stay in that "comfort zone," and I'm guilty of it too. By rights, I should be attending a University right now, instead I'm choosing to be Nanny and find my own path that's not necessarily in the hallways of a college. Also, there's the matter of money for school, but hey, if I really wanted it bad enough (like anything else in life) I'd find a way to make it happen. When you want something bad enough-you'll get it. And if you don't, than relax and have faith that God has a bigger and better plan for you-and it's rarely the one YOU had planned on.
But, back to the comfort zone thing, think about it: history was never made, epiphany's were never recognized by staying in the comfort zone. "Think out of the box," some people just can't do that. You can only find what you actively seek, and you'll only get out of life what you put in to it. If you don't put anything into life, you won't get anything out of it. Simple as that.
Alright, I'm going to follow my own advice and shut up now. Thank you for letting me rant! LOL! Now, on to more positive things! I caught Billy Dean (cutie pie) on CMT Insider last night and that was way cool! It's so nice to hear him back on radio and his new album is so great! It's like hearing an old friend, like homemade apple pie, you know, just cool and comforting!
Today, I go to watch Dylan and I'm looking forward to it because I didn't see him all last week and I missed him. I'm curious to know how he's doing, what's he's been doing and if he's actually turning in his homework like he's supposed to. That kid is such a kick and so much fun. He's so smart and bright and such an only child 9 year old boy! What a joy though, I'm blessed to have that kid to look after. He constantly teaches me. :)
What else? Oh, my middle school/high school history teacher, Mr. Towell, and his wife, Candace, are expecting their first baby this month. I'm so elated and happy for them! He'll be a wonderful father and he's been a great teacher, friend and influence on my life now for almost eight years. Hard to believe! He's a great man and his wife is very nice too. I'm exactic for them as they've been trying for like two years to have a baby. I hope that it's healthy and comes into this world in one piece. They don't know whether it's a boy or a girl, usually, I vote for girls when I hear women are pregnant. But, I don't know, I can see them with either a boy or girl. Boys are easier when they're younger, but harder to tame when they get older. Gosh, it's amazing, Mr. & Mrs. Towell are havin' a baby! Wow! :)
My mama is doing good, stressed to the max, but I can't really help that. I help out around the house and give her what money I can, my mom's just a natural worrier. Sorta like me! Well, at least I used to be, I don't worry about everything all the time anymore, no need to. It doesn't do any good, really! Anyhow, last night mom and I had spaghetti sqaush for dinner (yum!) and watched "Desperate Housewives," and "Grey's Anatomy." Such great shows and even better company! I love hanging out with my mom and even at 21, she's still one of my bestest friends! We drive each other nuts, and I have trouble trying to get her to see me as a woman, instead of a five year old girl-but hey, it's not her fault-she's a mom. I can understand that though my sister Kelsey, 15, has a boyfriend now and I'm like totally freaking out about it! I think 15 is WAY too young to have a boyfriend, I mean, relationships complicate EVERYTHING and at 15, it's just no necessary in my eyes. But, she's her own person and she is becoming a woman so I have to accept that. It is so hard to let go though. To me, she's still that little bouncy, bubbly blonde hair curlie Sue like little girl. God she was a doll, she still is. And she's still bubbly and bouncy and wonderful! I talked to her this weekend, she's so sweet and caring and has such a great heart! All three of my sisters are such good, caring people, they make me so proud! What a blessing!
I have doctors appointment at the urologist tomorrow @ 10am. I'm nervous, but also confident that God knows what He's doing and He won't give me more than I can handle. I've been through much, much worse, and all I have to do is turn on the news and see someone who has it a hundred times worse than I do. I believe we create the greater majority of what happens to us. So, today, I'm creating to stop dwelling on people that hold me back, stop being negative myself, and focus on God and my health and happiness.
Peace be with us, and have a HAPPY, JOYFUL, MIRALCE DAY!

Many Blessings,
-SL