Whew!

Okay, I'm going to make this as quick as possible, I only have about 25mins left on this computer here at the library. This is SUCH an inconvienance having to go elsewhere to do ALL of my computer work. I really don't do that much anymore, but what I do on here, well it takes a while. Between checking my emails, Ebay, TrishaYearwood.com, CMT.com, and other personal stuff, it takes a little longer than I thought. But anyway, hopefully, my own computer will be back up and running sometime next week!

Tomorrow, I have Dr's appointment wiht an ENT and have to be there @ 9:30am. Oh well, I gotta get up anyway and I'm really begining to like the mornings-it's peaceful, lovely weather and well, why miss it?

The weather here FINALLY cooled down and it is JUST beautiful and perfect. THIS weather is why I live in Vegas. I'm still not sure though if these next few weeks of nice weather is worth teh 115*+ we go through in the summer time. LOL!

Talked to my dad this weekend and we decided that when I move up there to Oregon it'd be best to live with some roomates-for my growth and sanity, and theirs. I mean, by the time I get up there I'll be 22, so yeah, no more living with parents-at least if I can avoid it. I love my parents, they mean the world to me, but I am an adult-or at least trying to be! LOL!

This has been one of those weeks when I can't wait to leave b/c of crap at home, but I know that life is hard anywhere, and I need to move for the RIGHT reasons (cheaper cost of living, being closer to my sisters and my dad, new friends, etc), NOT b/c I want to run away from my mom and Ricky....

speaking of whcih, I'm trying really hard not to let Ricky bother me, but it's very difficult when he's ALWAYS there, rigt in your face. He's being good b/c he's pretty sober right now, but I realized now that I just can't be around him at all, and since my mom is like a different person when she's around him, it kinda complicates things. It's been better than it was, but still, I'm looking foward to him leaving next week when his brother goes back home. He's staying at our place b/c his brother's in town and staying at his mom's where he usually stays....

at least he's been civil to me and did come and get me yesterday when I had a flat tire. Oh my god, what a day it was yetserday-the day from hell, form the moemnt I got up to the moment I went to sleep-YUCK! But, after all, it was a Monday and that happens, I have to keep reminding myself that at least I have a home, bed, car and family to go home to. I know where my mother is, and my grandma, and all my other loved ones, I have food in my house and I can see and stand and hear and sit, etc, etc, etc....I just keep telling myself that ove rand over and over again and then things don't seem so bad. This comptuer is really lousy on typing, I typye faster than this computer does! LOL! Funny!

Anyway, yeah, yesterday I had a flat tire, which totally sucked. But, there ARE bigger problems in the world and at least it happened during nice weather right around the corner from my place-thank God! It's still an inconvienane though! But mom, Ricky, and Ricky's mom, JoAnne, were really nice about helping me out and stuff. That was sweet. I really appreciated all they did-thanks guys! I took the tire to PepBoys today they fixed it and put it back on my car all for FREE-thank God b/c I seriously CANNOT afford any mishaps right now.

I have to keep reminding myself that the ONLY person I can change is ME! The only thing I can control is MYSELF. God is really reminding me to keep my emotions in check and not it let it get to me so much-just let go, relinquish control and let Him take care of it-'cuz He will, I just gotta have tat trust and faith-and I do, I really, really do! My stomach's been upset the last week, and I KNOW it's b/c I've been letting my emotions get the best of me, there's a SUPREME connection between MY mind, body, spirit and physicalities. MAJORLY! I get it God, really I do!

So, today I had a really nice nap, and yesterady I did as well. Actually, yesterday, the long nap was the highlight of the day! LOL! I like gettin gup early, but I also love my afternoon nap. I need it too! It's good to rest, relax and veg, and it's also good to work hard and get up and greet the day!

I sent some great e-cards out to friends and family this weekend commerating Sept. 11th (Patriot's Day), and Autumn-I LOVE AUTUMN! I think Summer and Autumn are now my favorite seasons-I hate winter, alright, hate's a pretty strong word-I highly dislike winter, but autumns wonderful! The colors, the smells, the fresh air, the new hearty dishes like stews and chili's and baked chicken-YUM! The first comfy sweater of the season-so incredibly delicious and joyful! Summer will always be my favorite though!

Anyway, the other day people responded to my Sept. 11th post and I was really touched. That's really my purpose in this life, I belive, it's to make poeple stop and think and inspire them through my writing. That's my gift and I thank God for it everyday. I've been working on some other new material, poems and stuff, that I'll post when I feel they're ready to be read by the world! LOL!

Well, I've said all I needed to say and now it's time to go! Happy Birthday to my dear friend, Lizette, and I hope she has a great one today! I'll write again asap......

Until then, remember that we are truly blessed beyond measure and that even in the craziness, chaos and harshness of this life, God IS there and He is all knowing and all loving! That's what I keep tellin' myself lately!

Many Blessings,
-SL