The Best Day...

Today was one of the best days of my entire life!

I feel so blessed lately, four weeks ago today (an official month on Tuesday!) I wed my Colin! And while that was downright fantastic, terrific and gorgeous; I must admit, today was a terrific day as well!!!! Awesome, actually!

I got to sleep in a little bit ('till around 8, 8:30am), then get ready and go to a Writer's Workshop.

I really want to be a writer--a real, bonified, (and paid) writer/author. I already am one, actually, minues the paid part, and I'm not quite sure how bonified I am. But, I digress.

The point is, I thoroughly enjoyed the workshop today. It was absolutely fabulous and fun and informative! I made a few (writer) friends and learned a lot!

Then I got to go home and enjoy some Lay's BBQ Potato Chips, a 7-Up (don't tell my husband!) and enjoy a long talk with my good friend, Sarah! I've mentioned her before, but she is just so cool. She's one of the best people I've ever met and we've been friends now for almost 3 years! My time realy does fly. We talked about marriage and men and mothers and having children and cars and all that stuff. It was truly a pleasure!

Then my sweet husband came home and we just relaxed on the couch together for a few hours. We watched THE INTERESTING program on the Discovery Health Channel called "The Science of Sex," and oh my gosh, it was just fascinating--truly! And it was so nice to cuddle on the couch with my man!

Tonight, I was at a friends house just hanging out with them and their little girl. And my gosh, she is so big now and so smart! This little girl is SUCH a joy in my life and I am SO privilaged to know her! And her parnets, of course, who ARE good friends of mine! So totally FUN! Wow!

Anyway, now here I sit; reflecting on what an absolutely wonderful day this has been. And how very blessed I am.

The truth is, it was a rough week, so I think today was a really nice break from it all....

I'm searching for jobs, going to Vocational stuff and meeting with my Job Developer (very nice lady named Darline--with an 'I'). I went on an interview yesterday (it went well, no word yet) and have been sending out literally a dozen resume's a week (for two weeks) and filling out application after application after application. It feels good to be throwing myself into something to positive and growth inducing; however, it's also dizzying!

I want to work part-time in a clerical position, very badly, BUT...this weekend was for ME...to rest, relax, and do whatever I want.

I think balance is important in life. It's like my mother always told me "Anything in moderation is fine, anything in excess will kill you." And of course, she's right.

So, I think finding the balance of "working" (or doing my job of FINDING a job) during the week and having my weekends (or whatever two days off I end up having) for ME and my PERSONAL life (outside of work) is SO important. It's crucial actually.

And I like that I can flip back and forth between the two and compartmentalize them both.

I like the focus of the work week; going, finding, filling out apps; but I also like relaxing and doing what I please on the weekend(s). It's nice.

Tomorrow, my husband and I have decided that we're doing NOTHING...we're simply going to vegg out, relax, talk, play a board game and just chill. Oh, I'm SO looking foward to it.

Like I said, it was a rough week, not just because of job stuff (having to train my body to get up in the early mornings again, and not pushing myself to exhaustion or illness) but because, well...Colin & I felt VERY married and VERY challanged by one another this week.

Extremely challenged.

That's not necessarily a bad thing in the end, and we certainly learned a lot about ourselves, each other and the way we want our marriage to be (as well as the ways we don't want our marriage to be)....but I won't lie and say that it all newlywedded bliss this past week; because it wasn't.

I think ADJUSTING to our new life (married, me looking for work, not being home so often, him getting back in the swing of things working all he does, and trying to find time for one another) is hard sometimes. And it IS an adjustment. And we WILL learn and grow...even when it is difficult to do so (like we said in our marriage ceremony). But, in the end, it was so totally worth it.

Looking back, although I would not care to repeat THIS particualr week of adjustment with my husband again, it was a week we NEEDED. We're better people, and better spouses, for having experienced it.

We learned from this week and will appreciate down the line. We learned how to communicate more effectively, be more attuned to each other's needs and wants and the value of promises.

It wasn't a horrible week by any means, just a rough one.

But you know, that's how life goes. You win some, you lose some.

Some days you're flying HIGH (like today) and all is calm and peaceful and great! And then some days, well, not so much! I learned how to control my anger towards my spouse using prayer, and how to effectively ask for what I want/need and actually get it. (As opposed to bitching/nagging/moaning and groaning which really doesn't get anyone, anywhere!). It was nice.

It's important to me that Colin and I build a strong foundation for our marriage now. That we set up patterns of effective communication and kept promises and respectful requests. BOTH of us, I'm not in any way, shape or form, badmouthing my husband on my blog. That's a major no-no, and I know that.

My point is; marriage is hard sometimes. Anyone who's married will tel you that. And you have to constantly learn about each other and how to deal with this other person. You have to make the CONCIOUS choice EVERY DAY to HONOR the vows you said/took/made. And sometimes it's difficult. But again, it's so very, very worth it!!!

All and all though, I needed this easy/blissful day!

I needed the time away from everyday things, time for myself to do what I specifically wanted to do, time to immerse myself in my favorite hobby (writing) and its culture, time to talk to and hang out with, dear friends of mine! And the best news of all? I missed that husband of mine today. I really did! I usually do, most days, but, today especially. And that's a really nice feeling. He missed me too, he said so!

And for that, and so many other things, I'm glad and I'm blessed.

On an international note, North Korea fired a missle today that went across China, Japan and Russia. And we, the U.S. and those countries the missle flew over and Europe...we're NOT pleased. And to be honest, it scares the crap out of me. Because this could very well possibly be the start of WWIII. And that's frightening. But, I REFUSE to live in fear. I REFUSE to be consumed by bad news and horrible mantra's. It just, when I thought about that, the whole North Korean Missle thing, it made me appreciate this "easy" day even more!

It made me realize--again--that none of us ever truly knows what's going to happen next in this life. We could go, this world could go...it all can disapear in SECONDS. It's fleeting, really. That's why it's incredibly important to APPRECIATE each and every day; and each and every moment.

To take the time to talk with and meet with loved ones, family and friends. To rest when we need to and listen, no really LISTEN, to our partner's, our bodies and our intution.

Our intution will tell us everything if we tune into it. Tune into it...intuiton; not an accident, my friends.

Anyhow, the workshop today made me think a lot about writing. I LOVE writing. I absolutely, positively love it. And I feel that although I may not express it so efficiently on THIS blog (because it's meant to be written a personal journal type of thing), I really do believe that I have a gift with writing.

I think God gave me a natural talent for it. And I think it's my responsibility to use it to the best of my ability.

I feel like so much in my life has been taken away; well, no, that's not true. Okay, so much of my bodily functions (NOT bathrooms ones--thank God), have been compromised, injured or taken away completely.

And this gift of writing, it's like a trade-off, a reward for sticking it out and staying around. I've written since I was about 8 or 9 years old.

And I've always loved it.

The days that I've spent writing, and doing nothing else, are some of my faovirte days in my entire life.

Writing is a creative outlet, a theraputic release and something that I can't NOT do. It's like breating to me. But, even so, NO ONE is going to come knocking on my door asking to publish my work. I want to publish a book of my poems; which really aren't work to me--they're "babies," peices of me and my life that share who I am and what I've learned in that moment. I don't want to say "work" when it comes to writing, because even though in all actuality, it is work...if you TRULY LOVE what you do,, than it doesn't feel so much like work. That's what my dad has always said to me and I know how he feels. Thanks, Dad!

The writers/authors at the workshop today said that you can't be in the writing field/business for the money, because the chances of making REAL and GOOD money at it are very slim.

I learned some really interesting facts about book reading/readers, publishers and editors (more on all that on another post), and the one thing that suck out to me is: you have to have determination, belief in yourself and be willing to WANT to beat the odds. And it occured to me; well, I've spent a whole life beating the odds, so why not beat these odds too? I mean, really, why not?

I truly believe that part of my purpose on this Earth is to share my story, to share my poetry, to inspire and teach others through my writing. And I think I will. No, I KNOW I will.

Sure, it may be YEARS before you see MY book(s)on the shelf or before I'm a best-selling Author, but I KNOW I will be. I can feel it. I was meant for it.

And I feel like it's time to start implenting that and heading in that direction.

I will work part-time, I will be married; be a wife/daughter/friend/etc, I will continue to enjoy cooking and reading (helps with the writing) and all other aspects of my life.

But WRITING is something I will also do. A WRITER, I will also be.

I want to sincerely thank the Lord for putting this into my mind and onto my heart, lately. I feel it, and I will try and use this gift You've given me, and stay open to learning about it, to the best of my ability.

I can't sing/sew/draw/run a marathon; but I CAN write, and so I will.

I had a dream about it the other night and I believe that dreams come true! I've had SO VERY MANY dreams come true, already, in my lifetime--why not have a million more?!

You've got to have dreams! If you're not dreaming, and learning and aspiring for something more, what's the damn point of getting out bed each day? Serioulsy!

Anyway, with all of this being said...my goal this next week (upcoming) is to continue my job search, go to job-related classes and send out more resumes. Hopefully, I'll get an interview too! Spend time with my husband (celebrate our one month wedding anniversary and our Nellie's [cat] 15th Birthday on Tuesday), and WRITE.

I want to write about my wedding day, I want to post pictures of it and our honeymoon. (Four weeks ago tonight we were enjoying our wedding night! Exhausted, overwhelmed but enjoying it! The start of our honeymoon! Yay!)

And I want to WRITE a blog entry, on here, in the 3rd person. I want to take myself out of it and tell a story about my day (that particular day or another one that's already happened, I'll see what I feel like writing about when I actually do it) from someone else's perspective. I want to write about our wedding like it's a magazine article. And I want to write a new poem.

I want to WRITE at least one to three things every week. Practice makes perfect!

Also this week, I want to ENJOY my it! I want to have perhaps an easier week than last; I want to further my job search, hopefully get an actual job, completely get along with my husband (half of that is up to me, I know!), I want to enjoy married life and newlywedded bliss, have a lunch or dinner with my mom, talk to my dad, see my friends again and WRITE!

And of course, as I always do, count my many and continuing blessings, each and every day!

For now though, it's 12:30am and time for me to sleep. Thank You, Lord, for this absolutely fantastic and beautiful day! For the love and the joy and the inspiration! For the learning and the hugs and the kisses! And the opportunity to talk with and hang out with my friends/loved ones.For the writng workshop, new friends and safe travels to and from! For the time with You, Lord; For the prayer and meditation and feeling of calmness and Light! Thank You, Lord, for it all! With You by my side, I'm sure to have a fabulous week ahead!

Please keep the blessings, especially for my loved ones, coming and overflowing--they're all much very appreciated!

In Light N' Love & (Writer's) Inspiration,
-Sarah Liz :)

P.S. I plan on attening three more writer's worshops (also on the weekends) this month! Wish me luck! :) -SL

P.S.S....so far, April is going pretty good! March was great, April is good too--so far! And also, it rained yesterday...and you know what they say "April Showers Bring May Flowers!" What a splendid and beautiful thing! I LOVE the rain! It's such a refreshing change from all the sunshine here in Vegas! :) It was great! -SL :)