Happy (Official) 25th Birthday, Sarah!!! (That's Me!)

HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

My gosh, I still cannot believe I'm 25 today!!! Wow! It's a little after seven o'clock in the morning, a Tuesday, and while I'm normally not a fan of Tuesdays, so far, I'm quite liking this one!

Last night, at midnight, I was lying in bed with Colin (I made him stay awake until 12:00am straight up), he gave me a hug and a kiss and said 'Happy Birthday, baby." Then we watched Robin Williams on The Tonight Show, turned the TV off and went to sleep! Right before I fell asleep though, I went "holy crap, I'm 25! Wow! It does feel different and I do feel older."

Anyway, back to comedy, I really like Robin Williams, I always have, he's so ridiculously funny! He visits UCSF every year, the hospital I've had most of my surgeries at and even though I've never personally met him, I always respected that about him. I like Jim Carey also, he's funny too! I think I might have my mom take us to go see "Yes Man" today, Jim Carey's new movie! My mom and I usually go to a movie on my birthday, we cannot go to the mall (years of doing so taught us the hard way!) because today, aside from Black Friday of course, is the biggest shopping day of the year! So, going to the mall on my birthday is out of the question, not to mention, I'm 25 today, not 15!!! LOL!

25 is quite young, I'll give you that, but it also isn't 16...but truth be told, I'm so glad to be turning 25 today and I honestly have no desire be a day younger than I am!!!

I do feel like now, at 25, I no longer have time to waste. I'm half way to 50 for goodness sake's! Being 24 and 2008 has been a year of reflection, planning and a lot of down time (truthfully, it was), and this year, at 25, in 2009 (to come), it's time to get off my butt and start doing! I want to write, I want to be paid to write, I want to get a job, I want to find my calling....I've already found a part of it, or many parts of it actually, I just don't know how to go about doing all of it, I'll figure it out, I'm sure I will! And how fantastic is it that I know, at 25 stinkin' years old (which is still young, right?) what I want to do with my life?! Well, I've always known, to a point, but plans and life changes you and I honestly feel like I have a grasp on what it is I want to do with my life!

25 will be the age I get married at....funny thing; a few nights ago I was reading older entries (like way older entries from 2005) and I was talking about my then boyfriend whom I spent a few years with. I was saying how I would NEVER get married, and that "forever," wasn't in my family or my vocabulary! And here I sit, just a few weeks away from my wedding to Colin! Truth is, marriage itself still scares me a bit if I honestly sit and think about the "forever," thing--whoa. That part of me hasn't changed, but I have, and I've grown up and I guess finding the right person helps; or more like, being the right person and being in the right place helps to! Marriage is hard, it takes a lot of work, anyone who's honest with you with tell you that up front! And I so appreciate when they do! It's a lot harder than I ever thought it would be, but it's the little, every day moments that makes it worth it! My gosh, back then, I had NO freakin' clue what marriage meant or entailed, I do now. I'm already married in so many ways, Colin & I feel married on so many levels, we just haven't had the party yet and we don't share the same last name! This is my last birthday as Sarah D. This time next year, when I turn 26 (yikes, in no hurry, I'm going to love being 25 first) I'll be Sarah W. Anyway, I'm excited for the wedding, and incredibly blessed that Colin & I chose each other to our husband and wife!

That being said, I feel so much else will happen to me this year at 25. I think it will honestly be one of the best years of my life! One of those years I'll look back on and go "Man! That was great, I want to do it again!" Because to be honest, although I wouldn't trade a moment of my life for anything in the world, a lot of it, I wouldn't necessarily do again! Some years, sure, but most years, no. And thank God I'm not still a teenager, wow, thank you Lord for that, seriously!

I'm 25 today!!! Wow!

That's a quarter of a century! Holy crap! It's amazing! You know what, what I felt last night right before sleeping was correct: I DO feel older! I do feel different. It's weird and odd, but fabulous and wonderful! I'm so proud, of myself, of my mom, of all of my parents, my Colin and everyone who's helped get me to this day--it's been a long time coming!

I was born on a snowy, cold winter Friday morning and gave my mother absolute hell with a heartburn ridden birth, coming out very much a girl when they'd informed her seven times over that I was a boy, (Surprise Mommy!) And, being unable to hold me for the first few hours of my life....but we bonded none the less and are remain incredibly close to this day! If this day is anyone's but mine, it's hers! What an accomplishment that woman (my mother) has on her hands! (Not me necessarily, personally, but having and raising a child and watching it grow up to be relatively healthy and very happy!) Wow! She's amazing too!

It's funny, because this year, my mother and I have been up and down; and honestly, we've faught more this year than ever before. It's been a hard road with her and I this year. But, perhaps, turning 25 today will turn a new page for us and as of late, we've been getting along better, so that's great! We never fought when I was a teenager, sincerely, so perhaps, when I was 24, we were just making up for lost time! LOL! I don't know, wow, "when I was 24," amazing! I'm a quarter of a century!

Okay, sorry, but this bailout business, on the news....bolonga! People need to DEMAND that the way this money is spent is DISCLOSED and becomes PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE! I mean, isn't this how we got into this position in the first place?! But NO, nooooooooo we cannot bail out the home owner! People being literally kicked and locked out of their homes all across the country, leaving them homeless and often hopeless..... Makes me cringe. One of my goals is to own a home with Colin, SOMEDAY, I'm not sure that'll happen until I'm 30 or 35, a deacde from now, but it WILL happen eventually, that's a dream I'm going to hold on to, even if takes a long while to get to!

Anyway, no stinkin' thinkin' for me today! It's December 23rd and it's my birthday! Time to be happy, joyful, praise the Lord and CELEBRATE! Happy Birthday to me and a very Happy Holiday and Healthy, Happy New Year 2009 for everyone! God Bless us Everyone, He sure has blessed me--abundantly, incredibly and a million times over! Truthfully, my life is so blessed! Thank you Lord for an amazing 25 years, and once again, here's to the next 25......

In Light (and more Birthday) Love,
-Sarah Liz :)