Update: I feel like being quiet....

I posted this on MySpace earlier today....

It's been a busy few weeks for me, and for Colin! But the other night, on Halloween actually, we celebrated our two year anniversary about two weeks early! We went to the Stratosphere and had dinner and got a room! It was a lovely time! The view from the Top of the World Restraunt was absolutely, positively breathtaking-ly beautiful! What a sight to see! And the food? Expensive, but worth it, sincerely one of the very best meals either of us has ever had! :) Amazing!

My recent visits from my best girlfriends, Tessa & Claudia! We had so much fun and Tessa & I got a chance to "do the Strip" (and no I don't mean get naked!) and it was so much fun! Colin and I went down there last week too, so for a local, I've been to the Strip a lot lately! Us locals normally avoid it because it's so touristy and traffic ridden, but I must say; it is a sight to see! And although I don't consider myself a "Vegas girl," and I'm certainly not for partying or drinking or any of the other crazy "sinful" stuff that goes on here (most of which I wish I didn't know and don't want to know more about!), it is an incredible place to live!

I think Tessa was a bit culture-shocked, Lord knows I was my first few times here, and even my first year of living here! I hated it! While I can't say it's where I want to stay, getting a chance to show the town to my best friends and experience it with my man, I've come to appreciate it a little more! Vegas truly is a trip around the world and a place like no other! Anyway, I thoroughly enjoyed having my friends here and seeing them and talking with them IN PERSON (what a concept!) was just beyond terrific! It made me miss them more, but solidified our friendships, so that was great!

School has been kicking my butt lately, struggling to keep up with it and find another job....not easy stuff, but also not anything other people don't experience every single day! My praise to all of you! I'm pulling up my grade in Math which is fortunate considering my horrible miscalucation (literally) on the last test I took! Yikes! So, today, it was a morning FULL of homework/studying! I got over the "I don't want to, I'm tired" HUMP of school, which ineveitably happens around Mid-terms each & every semester, and so now I'm back on board with myself; renewed, refreshed and with new motivation! I want my damn degre! :)

I've been feeling quiet lately, I'm not sure exactly why. The truth is I've got some personal things going on in my life which I don't care to discuss. I'm not unhappy, but the world, the country and my own life, is changing. I'm trying to embrace it all, but I've never been a fan of major/constant change. But then again, I know that the only constant in life IS change! Go figure!

Anyway, I've felt the need to close my mouth and listen more, lately. I don't necessarily feel like broadcasting myself, my feelings and my happenings to the world on a daily basis anymore.

I'm craving privacy; not secrecy, and certainly not disregard for my family/friends, but I am experiencing a time of change, reflection and quietness. I've been thinking a lot lately (granted, I do a lot of that anyway) and trying to balance many things in my life. I'm contemplating, reflecting and planning. Yes, I'm still planning mine & Colin's wedding, and I'm planning finishing school & finding a job....don't get me wrong, I just want to be quieter about it all, you know.

I think there's too many people out there struggling with too much right now, too much heartache, sadness and pain, that my own little life is not that hugely important. Well, no, let me re-phrase that because now it sounds like I'm depressed, which I'm truly not, I know when I am and I'm willing to admit to it. What I meant was: I've gotten into the habbit of being self-absorbed lately, which is fine at times, and then at other times, it's time to step back and let others lead. My life is incredibly important, it's meaningful, fun, blessed, worth it and absolutely valuable. And I absolutley love it! But, part of growing up (which I'm still doing) is knowing when to keep your mouth shut and let others shine! So that's what I'm doing. It's not that I don't care about all of you, or that I don't check on here every single day (regardless of whether or not I post anything or write anyone), I do, I care deeply! I pray for all of you every single day!

But right now, I need to listen and learn! Please do not hesitate to send me a message, I will write back! I love hearing from all of you!

But, for now, I'm just going to lay low. I'm going to WATCH the world, contemplate, reflect, listen, decide my next indivisual move (that'd be outside of getting married) and be quiet. This mood may pass tomorrow, or in a few months, when exactly, I do not know. But, if I don't write, and don't blog for a while, you'll now why!

I am grateful for my life and every single person in it! I consider myself one of the absolutely most ridiculously blessed people I know! I have incredible things/abilities/rights/ freedoms/people to be grateful for! I thank God for all of each and every day!

The Stratosphere get away with Colin was so nice; to be able to just get away for 24 hours; lock ourselves away from the world and just be! We had such a fun, romantic and fabulous time, we really did!

But, you know, there's so much craziness in the world today, especially in this country. There's so much uncertainty and trepadation and misery. There really is. Yes, there's hope and help and grand things too. But I think in these crazy times, it's harder to be happier, we have to take time to purposely focus on the little (oh' so important ) things.

We have to take time to focus on our loved ones and real, close relationships that matter. We have to re-prioritize and spend our money, and our time, a bit more carefully!

And in order to that, I need to de-clutter my computer life!

I love my computer, would not want to live without it! It's such a life source and a great source! It makes me feel so connected and in-tuned with the world. I love it! But, it's time to disconnect from it for a while. Again, for how long I don't know. Like I said, I'm going to take the time to reflect, contemplate and just be.

I will say this though, please be sure to VOTE on Nov. 4th if you haven't do so already! I voted on Friday, Halloween Day, with Colin! We went down the polling place together and stood in line for about an hour and a half and cast our ballots! It was wonderful! I teared up, yes I did! What an honor, what a privilage and what a freedom! I'll cherrish it always! The couple that plays/prays and VOTES together, stays together, right?!

I don't care who you vote for, but please, just VOTE! These are monumental, life-changing times we're living in, folks, it's time stand up, be counted and like Ghandi once said, "be the change (we) want to see in the world." So, express your freedom, express your opinion, express your right as an American and please vote on Tuesday, November 4th!!! May God Bless you and may God bless America! I know He's already blessed me (with so very much; loved ones, home, car, sight, hearing, food, warmth, gorgeous weather, trees, oxygen, good organic coffee, clothes, my hair, clear skin--(yes, lately, I'm very grateful for that, it makes me feel so pretty, sorry for sounding vain if I do, but clear skin and no acne is very good thing), etc, etc, etc....-- and I hope God continues to bless it all as well!

I'll write again when the urge hits me, but no promises as to when that will be. So, take care of yourselves, take care of each other and stay positive! There is so much in this life to be thankful for!

In Light N' Love,

-Sarah Liz :)