I don't like....

This entry is a bit out of character for me, but I feel compelled to write it anyway...life isn't always a bowl of cherries and contrary to popular belief, I'm not ALWAYS so positive....so here it is...a list of things I don't like:

*Having, or choosing, to make responsible choices while people around me continue to make stupid ones, or rather, not make them at all.

*Sometimes feeling as though I'm the only mature person I know. (This isn't true of course, and I'm not always mature...for instance, this entry--kind of immature.)

*The fact that I was given the ability to put myself in other people's place, and others weren't..you know, this world really would be a better place if we could all do that!

*The fact that I can readily admit to the ways in which I'm royally messed up, and will apologize for most of shortcomings and try and correct them (though no one is perfect) and others cannot do the same in return!

*Always having to "remind" people to count their blessings when sometimes, I'd like to bitch & complain too! But only sometimes, because really, I am abudantantly blessed and what's the point of complaining? God is love and joy. And life and Thanksgiving--and I readily choose to walk that path, instead of the insanely negative, ways in which the world is wrong one!

*Feeling like I live in a a constant state of drama in one form or another--I mean, really! Come on, people! Not naming names, and I'm no walk in the park myself. I can be quite complicated and difficult, but really?! ENOUGH of the drama, drama, drama! it does NOT say "Dr. Sarah" across my forehead!

*People not taking responsibility for their own health and life when I have to live mine a very certain freakin' way just to stay out of the hospital!

*On that note, people who take their relatively good health for granted. Who don't know how fantastic it is to just be healthy--without much of a struggle! Yes, I am pretty healthy today compared to how I was 20 years ago, but I wok my ass off at it. And sometimes, that gets old.

*People who can get drunk and then get to throw up, my not being able to throw up is probably God's way of keeping me in line! Granted, alcahol was never appealing to me, but sometimes, I DO feel like getting drunk off my ass and I can't....not only because I think it's dumb, stupid & immature to do so, but because I couldn't throw up if I did!

*People who ride my tailgate on the freeway, if I were to even so much as TAP on my breaks, they'd be in my backseat! I cannot go faster than the car in front of me, folks, so back the truck up, literally!

*People being completely unaware of how beyond blessed they really are!

Writing entries like this, which is exactly why I don't do it that often. But hey, a girl's gotta do, what a girl's gotta do...and I needed to vent today....

I'm entittled to complain occasionally too, you know!

Despite all this, I still believe that life is good, that people are good and that my life is downright fantastic! I am so richly blessed, and I know it. And that's a great feeling!

Thank You, Lord, for it all! My sincerely endless blessings, my husband, my mother, my best friends, my grandma, my Nellie, my home, my TV, the gift of writing, the gift of health and everything else You so graciously bless me with! Please continue to bless it all, walk with each of us and continue to make Your Presence known, in my life and in the lives of others!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)

P.S. I also don't like that I'm sitting here feeling GUILTY about writing this entry. I mean, I'm already considering deleting it when I haven't even posted the damn thing yet! Come on, Sarah! You're a real human being, not a Saint! Why do I feel bad if/when I complain? I'm not one of the BEST people I know, but I'm certainly one of the most grateful. I ooze gratitude! (That's a good line!) But I'm also a realist and sometimes, life, or mostly people, not life itself, get on my nerves! You know what though, I really wouldn't, truly & sincerely from my heart, would not trade any one in my life for the world itself! I have the right to complain now & then, but I also have the right to change things I don't like or am not happy with. I always say "Complain a little, then CHANGE!" My life & my out look on it is completely up to me & I know that! I'm well aware of that, and I'm making the choice to NOT delete this entry because it proves that I'm human and real and honest. I am choosing to look for the lesson, everyone & everything is here to teach me SOMETHING, I just have to be willing to learn! Please Lord, help me learn as only You can do! I'll remain optimistic! God Bless Us Everyone!