10-20-2010

Everyone was into the "10/10/10" thing this year, and that is pretty cool! But that happens every 100 years....10/10/1910...10/10/2110.....but TODAY will only happen ONCE....today is actually 10/20/2010.

Get it....Ten, Twenty, Twenty-Ten....

10/20/2010.....THAT is just SO neat!

I want to write a lot more than I'm going to tonight, I really do. But, I'm tired. I slept a lot last night, and rested a lot on Monday night--but I'm still catching up. I did too much the last two weeks and I'm paying for it--dearly.

I'm getting rest, just not enough, you know.

Oh well, at least I figured out the reasons for my fowl mood earlier....

I'm not writing enough lately. I'm not writing poems, which I want to be, I'm not journal ling (privately) or blogging enough lately. I'm not hanging out with my friend, Sarah. I've not meditated since Sunday (it's now Wednesday). I am not getting the house to myself lately (I did for four blissful hours last week!). I'm not doing Tai Chi (I was doing it every day and I need to get back to that, it helps EVERYTHING--physically and mentally!) And sorry to say, I'm not getting some 'other fun' things lately either......and most of all, until this evening, I wasn't cooking at ALL because of my stomach problems. So, let's see...if I'm not writing, cooking, hanging out with at least one friend, having the house to myself, meditating, doing Tai Chi and doing other 'fun' stuff....NO WONDER I'm a little cranky. All of that combined with being so tired--it totally explains why I was in a funk. I'm not saying I'm depressed, because I'm not, I just was agitated tonight, that's all. I just need to get back to things I love. I NEED to write, I NEED to cook, I NEED to hang out with friends, I NEED to meditate every day, I NEED the house to myself occasionally, and sorry to say, but I NEED that other 'fun' thing too!

The first five or six of those can absolutely be fixed!

It's up to ME to keep doing the things I love. It's up to ME to carve out time for the things I know will make me happy and boost my mood!

I've also been working lately, and so that's taking up most of my time. I'm blessed to have a job, and I do love my job, but I need to get back to a place of balance between my working time and MY time. And I need to go back to Meditation Class, that helped tremendously!

I'm eating again though--and it's awesome!!! I'm telling you, there's not a lot that I actually ask for in life--except to eat what I damn well please. Tonight, I came home and made pasta (yummy) and a salad w/ apples, onions, grapes, arugula and dried cranberries---so delicious! And it didn't make me sick--YAY! I'm SO glad and happy and THANKFUL I can eat again! Seriously, you have NO idea what that means to me. It brings me to tears of joy to know that (for the most part) I can eat what I love again and not pay for it. Praise God!

I'm not over doing it and I still can't eat a lot at one time, but I'm getting back in there and my stomach seems to be clearing itself out--which is fabulous news. It also means I don't have to back for Surgery #34---I think--thank God! :)

I did make my family and friends laugh, though--I said "you know, if I can't eat what I want, I'm going to have to become a woman who shops!" It was true. I would. But, thankfully, I can eat again and the shopping is eh, not appealing. I have enough stuff already, really, I do.

But, I did buy a coat this past weekend! I haven't bought one since I was 17 years old...almost 10 years ago. I know, sometimes I really am my mother (she's had the SAME pink robe for 40 years! I love that thing, though!). Anyway, I was in Southern California and it was quite cold and rainy and cloudy. I forgot my coat at home and I needed one. I needed one then and I needed one in general. So, I went to Burlington Coat Factory and found the PERFECT Brown and Purple REVERS ABLE coat! It is so cute and SO me! It's got really pretty embroidery work on the brown side--and the other side is purple fleece! It's totally revers able with pockets on BOTH sides, it has a hood and fits me just perfectly! It isn't too bulky or flimsy and I just love it! So there, I finally bought a new coat! Yay for me!

Seeing my Uncle and Aunt down in CA was just terrific! I hadn't seen them since my wedding and it was so great to be able to sit and visit and chat! They have the cutest little house in N. Hollywood. I also saw the ocean and that was fabulous too! It was a brief trip, but wonderful anyway! I'm so glad I went, I had a terrific time! :)

Speaking of Aunts....I'm going to be one--officially! I can't remember whether or not I've already posted about this, but my sister, Kelsey is pregnant. I heard from her on Monday and she's doing good. She's due in April and she's over her morning sickness. She said that that was "some f****ed up s***t!" I'd have to agree, although, probably, honey, wait 'till you're in labor. Glad it's her and not me right now, I'm sorry. My dear sister is excited and doing well, and it was so terrific to hear her voice--I miss her. I'm so excited, I'm going to be an Aunt!!! I really thought I'd be an older Aunt, but hey, she IS 21 and that IS old enough. And hey, NONE of us (my 3 sisters & I) were planned and neither were most people I know under 40. So, it's good. Blessings come when they're supposed to and God doesn't make mistakes. I know my sister will make a fantastic mother and I am so proud of her for taking care of herself now, she has to, she's a mommy! I can't wait to be an Auntie--yay! :) I hope my niece or nephew is healthy, and I hope I get to be there when it's born, that'd be terrific!

So, what else?

Last night, there was a HUGE Thunder/Lightning Storm here in Vegas--it was absolutely awesome! Of course it poured rain too and that was also terrific! But I can't get over how very COOL (literally & figuratively) the storm was! It's so RARE that we get an actual storm like that....it was SO neat!

While I was at work tonight, it rained and thundered as well....the thunder was so loud it sounded like it was going to split the building in half--and so yes, I got a little scared. I'm not normally scared of thunder and lightning--but God was puttin' on quite the show last night AND tonight and this evening, I got a little nervous...it was still awesome though, it really was!

The rain is so great--it's so refreshing and cathartic! Last night before I went to bed, I stood on my porch and stuck my hands out and let the rain fall all over my hands...it was COLD, but it was fantastic! It felt SO GOOD to have my hands freezing cold in the pouring rain--very cathartic and cleansing indeed! Awesome!

I was fortunate to be able to rest a lot last night, and Monday as well. I went to bed SUPER EARLY both nights, and should probably be in bed right now, but I want to write.

Today is my cousin's wife's birthday--Miss Erica. Of course I called to wish her a Happy Birthday and I was so overjoyed when she told me she was having one of her best birthdays ever! She got totally spoiled today and I'm so glad she did! She's just great!

This weekend, I get to do house stuff and relax. I was going to go see Phil Vassar in concert, and as much as I love and adore him, I really can't afford it. I'd rather go see The Judds in December for my birthday. Sorry, Phil. I'm bummed, really.

The Halloween decorations that my mom put up around the house look so neat! I'm so glad she's around to still do that kind of stuff. I LOVE decorating for the holidays (all of them) but it takes so much time and effort, I'm just not into it. It's so lovely that she still does that for me--Colin's really good at it too so when mom doesn't, I pawn it off on him. LOL!

In all reality, even though Halloween is my LEAST favorite holiday, the house looks so cool! Even though I despise scary movies, horror flicks and anything that points downward and is negative--I have to say, the older I get, the less Halloween bothers me. It used to scare the crap out of me when I was a kid. Now, I tolerate it. LOL!

I'm so glad it's Autumn though, it finally got chilly and it's wonderful! I don't think I've ever welcome cooler weather with such open arms in my life! It's terrific!

Oh, I just found out that Applebee's is serving free meals to Veterans on Veteran's Day next month, how cool is that!? Last year, apparently, they served over 1,000,000 meals--that's terrific! God Bless all our Veterans and current Service Men and Women--we'd be nowhere without them, God Bless their families too!

I'm SO glad I wrote this entry tonight, I do feel better now! Just having written this lifted my mood...yay!

I think that's it for now, though. I just can't stay awake. At least I wrote something, perhaps I'll write more tomorrow!

Thank You, Lord, for letting me eat again. For getting me to and from home and work safely! For keeping my family healthy and sane--and me too! For more birthdays of my loved ones! For thunder, lightning and cleansing rain! For cooler weather, for a job, for terrific bosses, for a lovely new "So Sarah!" coat, for friends, family, and rest. Thank You also for the common sense to listen to my body and for a body that makes me slow down and enjoy the journey! It's all because of You, and I am humbly grateful for it all!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)