Wow! What an enjoyable and productive day! I'm going back to school! :)

Wow! What a day! A great & fabulous day! When I decide to do something, I totally do it! I was reminded today of my grits and determination (one of my best qualities, I think) and got a little piece of myself back. As you know, I've been battling depression...and yesterday, after once again fighting the depression and missing Colin so much (he was at work) and benig totally bored, I decided that life is not going to fall into my lap, I have to get off my butt and go get it! Sure, I may have some limitations, but I'm totally capable, as long as I'm willing! I was also reminded of my 110% way of doing things! Last night, I decided to go back to school and today, I went down and signed up for classes! I'm so darn close to my Associates Degree it'd be STUPID not to get it!!! So I'm going to, it's always been one of my dreams...I used to want it before I got married, NOW I want it within the first two years that I am married! I only need 1 Social Science, 2 Science and 4 math (if I was smarter, I could skip 2 of those 4 math classes, but oh well, by the time I get my degree, I'll be really good at math--I've up and decided I will be)! I started the day with meditating and sure enough, when I do that, and stay closer to God, my life goes so much better and so much more gets done! I went and registered for school, did some house stuff and hung out a little with my mom! It was a fun and productive day! Last night, I talked to my dad, and I told him all of the decisions I've been making: looking for work in a clerical environment/office-type setting and going back to school! I'm going to attempt to go to school part time and work part time, I HOPE I can, I THINK I can!!! It'll be a challange, and that combined with running a home and a man (that'd be my sweetheart, Colin!), part of me thinks I'm getting in over my head, but I really believe I can handle it! I'll go from being MAJORLY BORED to MAJORLY BUSY! What a switch! Anyway, I'm really proud of myself....and the best part, my parents and my man are proud of me too! Colin said he was proud of me and will support me and my dreams, whatever they may be--how sweet and how darn lucky am I!!! Aww!!! Last night, my dad said he was proud of me, and that I'm really getting my stuff together...then, about 10 minutues lately, my mom called me and said "I just wanted to tell you that I love you and I'm proud of you, baby, really proud of you." She also said I'm getting my stuff together too...I think it's the first time I can ever remember my parents telling me the same and especially positive thing consecutively, in the same night! It was awesome! You know, I never want to go through life trying to please everyone; least of all my parents, but I'm still their kid and Colin's girl...and I REALLY DO want to make them all very, very proud! I LIKE making them proud, it's a wonderful feeling! Sure, I'm human and I'll mess up and I often do...and in about four months, I'll probably think "what on earth WAS I thinking?" But, hey, I've done school many times before and going to work and earning some income of MY own...or rather, helping OUR financial situation.....well, there's a TON of pride in that! My mama didn't raise me to depend on a man, and while I love him, want him, and even need him, I'd hate to JUST become Mrs. Wolf alone...you know, I need MORE than that, just like he needs more than me! (I'm also going to attempt a part time job in an office setting here in about two weeks--yay! Never done that before, looking foward the newness of it though, I needed a change! Change may be difficult, but really, it does make life endlessly interesting and fun!) Anyway, as for me and Colin......at the end of the day, after all is said and done, he IS my man and I DO need him; he's my pal, my bud, my partner. And sitting here next to him on the couch, typnig this blog and watching 'The Golden Girls,' well, this is the perfect ending to THE most enjoyable day I've had in a long time! I'm feeling nervous, I'm feeling exhausted (I did ALOT today, more than I normally do), I'm feeling excited, I'm feeling happy and most of all, I'm feeling great! GO SARAH! Sometimes, I impress myself! God Bless those back in the midwest dealing with the floods, I have so much to be grateful for, one of my greatest blessings in my beautiful home with my beautiful man! And the love and support of ALL of my family and friends, and especially my parents! Thank you Lord for every single bit of it, I have the best life--thanks to You! Please continue to give me the strength, courage, stamina, faith, patience and grace to get through this new and exciting chapter in my life! Here we go.....
In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)

P.S. I really don't think I'm THAT fantastic, and I'm not donig anything that millions of people around the country don't do every day! But I lit a fire under my own butt and it's working...when you want something, if you want it bad enough and you're willing to work at it (like, say, marriage!), you'll get it!!! :)

P.S.S...and I do mean, here WE go....not just me, but me and Colin and our life together....and the love and support of my parents and Colin's family and our friends! It'll be totally awesome to walk across that stage and finally get my 2 year degree that will have taken me 10 years to get...but hey, it'll be special and important none the less! And it'll be totally deserved! I'm so looking foward to that day and excited for it! But FIRST...of course, the day that I'll officially become Mrs. Colin Wolf....walking down the aisle with my parents to marry my sweetheart, and walking back up it with him as his wife.....having all of our family and friends there to celebrate with us....oh THAT will be totally awesome too!!! I'm SO excited and life is looking good....overwhelming and busy, and exciting on many different levels, but great none the less! I'm really growing up and I'm really very happy and proud because I feel like I'm doing something with my life! I'm getting my degree, going to work, and getting married....that's enough for now and I'll try my best to live IN the moment and stay present for each and every wonderful, stressful step along the way! :) -SL