I Feel So Lazy...

Oh my gosh, I went and got my oil changed in my car today, had to after I traveled 3,500 miles to Oregon and back. I went and got my mom's Rx's for her and went to the store. But then I came home and planted my butt on the couch and stayed there until about 4:30pm. Lately, I am SO lazy. I actually do HAVE things to be doing such as sorting through the HUGE mess under my bathroom counter, emptying purses and bags in my room, getting my car washed and detailed, grocery shopping...but damn, I just have NO energy. I'm not depressed, I just feel like "no, I'm not doing anything." And I HATE it. I'm SO not that kind of person, I usually have loads of energy and am always on the go, but for some reason, this past weekend and last two days, oh my god, it's like PLEASE don't make me move. I do have a light pneumonia so that could definately be a part of it, but I DO want to get things done, I just can't seem to find the energy. It's disgusting. My mom says it's okay, cuz it will pass and things will get done, but gosh...anyhow...I figured out this morning why God made it so my mom doesn't have a car. Because as selfish as I am, I needed something to kick me in the butt and MAKE me put someone else's needs before my own. Taking my mom to and from work and running errands for her and stuff, it MAKES me get up and DO something, even if it's not for ME. And that's something I've never been forced to do. It's forcing me to look at my life as not just my own, but help out and not expect anything back. It's amazing, God does work in mysterious ways, I get it God, thanks! Also, I think taking care of other people's children the last seven months or so taught me to be less selfish too. But I still am quite selfish, but hey, at least I know it and if that's my worst fault, I don't think I'm doin' too bad. Anyhow, I want to write about "If I Had Kids," and how I would raise them, I know, I know all pre-parents say that and then end up going "nope, I was wrong." But I do think I would make a good mom. I'd be strict, fun, fair and FULL of love. My mama is a great example of how amazing a mom can be, but I'd do things a bit differently. However, like I said earlier, right now, I'm too lazy to write about it, I just wanted to mention it and remind myself to write about it at another time. My mom and I went to see Charlie & the Chocolate Factory the other night, with Johnny Depp, I like JD, but I like the original version better. The new one is a bit, well, gothic and creepy, I definately woudln't take kids to see it, it freaked me out. LOL! Anyhow, it's time to go get my mom, so I gotta run, but I'll write again soon. So far, I've written 3-4 days in a row, I think, and I'd like to do this everyday, if possible. I feel the NEED to write and share my thoughts, it's quite theraputic! Anyway, bye for now!

Many Blessings,
SL