Six Weeks & Counting....

Current mood: excited

Six Weeks! SIX WEEKS! My goodness, I'll be a married woman in six weeks! Right now, forget the marriage part...we're getting along just fine, enjoying the process, excited as heck...but you know what...I'm so looking forward to our WEDDING! I already exhausted myself on the marriage aspect, I know what it means, and I take it quite seriously, really, I do! I know marriage is the point here and the cause for celebration! I freaked out about it, I had my worries, my concerns and now, I think I got it all out of my system! I'm sure I'll be a bit nervous the day of the actual wedding, but maybe I won't. You never know! Marriage is great, but for now, my focus is our wedding! And I have every intention of having the time of my life at mine! Literally! I'm going to have SO MUCH FUN at our wedding! I plan on dancing my butt off and partying too--in a very responsible, non-drunken kind of way! LOL!

I'm going to ENJOY it, REVEL in it, and REMEMBER IT! So many Brides don't remember their wedding day, and I intend on remembering mine! I know I can't control the weather, and I can't control every aspect of it, but you know what...I know in my heart that after all of the planning and arguing and dreaming and scheming and wondering and worrying and all that we've been through.....this is OUR DAY!

This is the day we come together as husband and wife and celebrate our life--up until that moment, that day and every moment to come afterwards! I'm well aware that marriage is an entity in and of itself, I'm well aware that the marriage that ensues after this wedding is far important than the day itself....but the day itself, it's pretty darn important too! Colin & I have earned it, and so have our beloved family & friends! They too, have earned the right to celebrate and enjoy the day with us! My wedding may be being done on the cheap, but by no means does that mean it'll be any less special, meaningful and fun--in fact, I think it might be more of all of that because of the ways we've depended on the kindness and generousity of others. Because of the ways that others have given their love, time, support and energy. Because of the way that others have donated their services; hairstyling, cake-making, DJ-ing, veils, card box, venue itself, etc, etc, etc....we are so blessed, Colin & I, so very, very blessed!

The other day, I was thinking about my life exactly four years ago...I had my makeup done at the makeup counter in Macy's the other day and the girl who did it was 21....TWENTY-ONE! That seems so young now, I know, I'm not that much older, but it got me thinking. The difference between 21 & 25 is vast.....and in the last four years, I've grown up so much! I've bought a car, held down a few jobs, gone to school & gotten closer to my degree, had a few more boyfriends (but not a lot, I'd only had one at that point), taken a 3,000 mile trip to Oregon, met my future husband, moved out, gotten engaged, and planned a wedding of my own! That's A LOT in four short years, and I find myself appreciating the journey even more!

I'm so glad I waited until now, 25, to get married! I just knew at the end of 2007 that I wouldn't be ready at 24, and I wasn't. 25 has made a world of difference in my life! And I've already been 25 for a MONTH! My gosh, time really does fly when you're having fun! And I'm having the time of my life! It's not without stress, it never will be, there will always be something of struggle in some capacity--that's life, that's how we learn and how we grow.

But, my gosh, this truly is the most joyous time of my life, SO FAR! 25 has been to good to me one month into it and, 25 was definately the right age for me to get married! I feel more ready for it now, more sure of myself, more prepared! Not that we're really ever prepared for anything in this life and perhaps in 10 years, when I'm 35, I'll look back and say "I was such a girl," but right now, I don't feel like a girl at all. I feel like a bright, beautiful, sure-of-herself, curious, excited, strong, faithful, thankful, joyous and beyond blessed WOMAN! And I'm loving every minute of it!

Anyway, I need to go wake up my fiancee', we have a lot to do today. We didn't see each other that much yesterday and I found myself missing him terribly last night, so that's a very good sign!

He does put butterflies in my tummy, and I hope he always will!

Here's to him, and us and our life together--and are wonderful wedding taking place 6 weeks from today! And here's to everyone who's been a wonderful, supportive and loving part of it--it wouldn't mean even half as much without them!

God Bless Us Everyone, and thank you, Lord, for this amazing life!

In Light N' Love,
-Sarah Liz :)