Bordedom is Sometimes Good....& So Nice to See Grandma Happy

You know, out here in the country, there isn't much to do. So, I've kinda been bored, even though I have my own car and can really do what I please, it's kinda nice to be bored. One would lives in Vegas would almost say it's practically impossible to be bored there, but you can be. There's just a heck of a lot more to stimulate you in Vegas than there is here. Even so, in this crazy, hurried, rushed world we live in, bordeom is an all too precious commodity. I mean, I can't remember that last time I was truly this BORED. And come to think of it, I'm not really THAT bored, I have this blog, my grama's computer (actually 2 computers b/c most of these recent entires have come from a laptop-grama is SO spoiled-she deserves it though) I love this laptop business, it's really very cool, but it's funny what I've learned to live without since I moved to Vegas. My mom and I have struggled finanically since the day I got there, rather since the day my daddy Jim walked out back 1994, but hey, who's countin'. I've been thinking about driving out there, to Spanish Springs where I grew up and I'm thinking, maybe when I get back from Oregon, so far, I haven't been in the mood. I don't know, I just kinda wanna let the past be in the past and let bygones, be bygones. Actually, it's neither of those b/c the truth is, I just don't know if I can handle the pain and anguish of looking that blessed house I grew up in. Most of the time, it doesn't bother me, but sometimes it does, and lately it has. Father's Day just passed and that's always a hard day for me. My own father, Joe, whom I going to see later this week and I'm VERY excited, really wasn't able to be there for me as a child, child. My daddy Jim was, he clothed, fed, bathed, loved, hugged and cheered me on. So, he is still my daddy, it's just kinda like he's dead now b/c he's been so totally out of my life for so very long now. But, the point is, usually, every single time I feel bad or lonley or upset, I go home, out to Spansih Springs. This past week, being here w/ grama, I haven't felt that way at all, I'm actually feeling happier and healthier than I have in years! :) So.....maybe I feel somwehere deep down that going back home to SS will somehow ruin that, maybe, I don't know. Anyway, maybe when I get back from Oregon I will, but probably not tomorow or Friday. Tomorrow, I'm driving backto Reno (again) it's a LONG drive, to see my former therapist, Annette, and my friend from HS, Tessa. Actually Tess and I didn't really get to know eachother unitl after HS when we continued our college classes together, we were in PoliSci and we had a great time! It was the one and only time in my life that I sat in the back of the class, passing notes and goofing off-what FUN! I'm excited to see Tessa, and I haven't seen Annette in probably three years now so that'll be great too. It's so touching that Mark Towell and his family and Annette and Tessa and Karen hae all made time for me while I've been here, I'm so blessed to have such great and loyal, loving friends. How lucky can a girl be! :) Anyhow, last night I talked to my sweetie and that went great! Really fun, I kept trying to talk him into hopping a flight out here, but he said he couldn't, oh well, absnece makes the heart grow fonder. So, anyway, today, grama and I went out the Fallon Naval Airbasae and that was fun. We saw the airplanes and navy guys, I think grama was trying to set me up w/ one of them. Didn't pan out though, I already have someone! :) And glad I do. Besides, I don't want a military man, they're like NEVER home. And, while I have a deep appreciation, gratitude and respect for ALL of our (United States) Armed Forces and Soliders, I don't necessarily want to date one. But, Henry, my step-granmpa, is a retired everything-Army & Marine, so grama's gotten kinda keen on that, but then again, she's almost 75 and has been married like 3-5 x's before this one, so hey, she doesn't have to worry about dating and stuff. I don't have to do either, and God knows i woudln't want to, it's hard and nervous work! Having to explain yourself all over again, YUCK! NO thank you! Anyway, being here w/ grama this time is a totally different ballmgame, she's mellowed, relaxed, is more compassionate, more easy going and is SO in love and So happy and I can't even express to you all how incredibly wonderful it is to see. God, I love it, she's amazing and still one of my best friends! :) Anyway, I think tha'ts about all I have to say tonight, nothing specific I wanted to write about....so, ta ta for now, maybe I'll think of something later that's more interesting, at any rate (gosh I sound like my mother) goodnight!

Many Blessings,
SL

P.S. Tomorow, I'll be officially 21 and a 1/2 years old. I turned 21 six months ago tomorrow and gosh has time has totally flown! 21 is still the BEST age and just gets better and better! Hard to believe six months from tomorrow I'll be 22! Wow! Happy Half-Birthday to ME! Also, Apsen Towell is 2 months tomorrow, Happy Birthday little Aspen, it was a pure joy and thrill to meet you AND your loving parents! :) We're both 23rd girls-YAY!!!!